Music. What are your songs? (recovery, depression, happiness, anything)

Johnlpn

Registrant
New song but the words touch me and express what I feel about life and my current living situation.

I felt you crumble in my arms down to your heart of stone.
You drained me dry just like the tears you never show
Why don't take what you want from me
Take what you need from me
Take what you want from me and go.
I can't listen without crying. It says what I want to say to my own mind. And my girlfriend at times.
 
Someone tried to do me ache (it's what I'm afraid of)
Someone tried to do me ache (it's what I'm afraid of)

4 7 2 3 9 8 5 - I gotta breathe to stay alive
1 4 2 9 7 8 - feels like I'm gonna suffocate
14 16 22 - this skin that turns to blister blue
Shoulders, toes and knees, I'm 36 degrees
Shoulders, toes and knees, I'm 36 degrees

 
Just discovered this Rap Song from Optikz, specifically talks about Child abuse!

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If I could only make it out of the dark to see (yeah)
How beautiful life could be (sometimes the darkest moments)
I could love the child in me
Show him that we can both be free (can become the brightest lights)
Too many years have gone by (I'm breaking the shame tonight)
In shadows and in disguise (yeah)
I'm breaking the shame tonight
Of lies and pain I've held inside

I can't define the pain and I can't define the hurt
Maybe I'm a diamond that shines, but hidin' in the dirt
Every day feels like a shadow and dark
Heart cut, beaten up and shattered apart
Fragmented, broken in a million pieces
A wounded inner child with the freakiest creatures
Told when he was little, to conceal the secrets
Now, rage got him wanting to reveal who the beast is
Exploded, dynamite sticks
The alcohol and drugs won't keep a tight lid
Inside him is a volcano about to blow big
Of justice he never ever got as a kid
Betrayed, abandoned, never protected
Contaminating adult life, livin' it reckless
Self-medicate, he's an addiction cocktail
It feels like his whole life journey is uphill

If I could only make it out of the dark to see
How beautiful life could be
I could love the child in me
Show him that we can both be free
Too many years have gone by
In shadows and in disguise
I'm breaking the shame tonight
Of lies and pain I've held inside

There's a monster that lurks inside of my head
Ever since innocence was stole' when I was a kid
Never asked for the abuse, it wasn't my fault
I never got the proper help, and now I'm an adult
But the little boy inside me is still so scared
Can't trust no one, paralyzed, fear
Get a job, quit it after three months there
Self-sabotage, suicide, I'm there
I never made a plan, though - I wanna live
But it's hard when you're manic one minute, depressed the next
And I don't trust you - don't take offense, I don't trust me
Scars in my life cut and wounded me so deep
I'm a little boy living in a grown man now
So I need to heal and make it out of this somehow
But I know that I will make it because I'm still alive
I was abused as a kid, but didn't die - I survived

If I could only make it out of the dark to see
How beautiful life could be
I could love the child in me
Show him that we can both be free
Too many years have gone by
In shadows and in disguise
I'm breaking the shame tonight
Of lies and pain I've held inside

I'm ready to face it - freedom, I taste it
Little Darren is no longer locked in a basement
Light coming in floods, breaking me out
Life is my divine right, claimin' it now
When all the trash from my past
I am taking it down
No longer confused, abused
Standing naked in doubt
I am a champion, I am a survivor
Baptize the pain and rise through the fire

Now the light is coming through
And the ice is breaking, too
Around my heart I finally feel like I'm brand-new

If I could only make it out of the dark to see
How beautiful life could be
I could love the child in me
Show him that we can both be free
Too many years have gone by
In shadows and in disguise
I'm breaking the shame tonight
Of lies and pain I've held inside

If I could only make it out of the dark to see
How beautiful life could be
I could love the child in me
Show him that we can both be free
Too many years have gone by
In shadows and in disguise
I'm breaking the shame tonight
Of lies and pain I've held inside


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Suwanee

Chat Moderator
Staff member
I've said before...music has always been my refuge.
Widespread Panic...my local band...
Will

Watchin' people roll by
Wonderin' where they're goin'
Hey, what's your job
What are you knowin'

Drivin' to the grocery store
Pull my money out
Passin' by the liquor store
Throw my money down

Ain't life grand
Ain't life grand

My wife's got the blues
Now I've got them
Gonna bring her a kiss
Make those blues run

Ain't life grand
Ain't life grand

Sun came out the other day
Through those dusty clouds
And in my mind I was a child
And it felt good !


 
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