Music by and for Survivors...
Here's a thought. MS is looking for ways to augment it's budget and funding. Would MS consider undertaking a compilation CD? Sorta like what was done with "Band Aid", "Farm Aid", "A very special Christmas" where the musicians allowed their songs to be compiled onto one Cd and the proceeds from the sales went to a charitable organisation? Just a brainstorm I had. Would be a great deal of work, but would create enormous publicity and attention to MS, the Artists, many of whom may want to become part of the movement to prevent abuse of children? Imagine! I wish I had the connections and resources to undertake such a task. If I did, here would be my votes for the first two discs...and this would be the "Pissed off" edition I guess...we could create a "Healing" version later?
I also post these for Sum1Sun....Please don't let these lyrics set you off, or hurt you, or ruin the songs for you. The message is subtle, but there. With the Linkin Park lyrics, it's less subtle. More in the face. Be well, be strong, stay well, stay strong...
- All Fucked Up
From the album ""
(What the fuck do you think you're looking at? HAHAHAHA!)
I am all fucked up
And I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I am dying on the inside
I want to be happy
But I don't know how
I am all fucked up
And it's always the same
I always get so close
Then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I'm all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
You're happy (repeat)
When you are all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I'm dying on the inside
I want to be happy now
I am all fucked up
And it is always the same
I always get so close, then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I am all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is gonna be like this
Than think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
- Cry Mandy Moore
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
all right....
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
- Don't Let Me Get Me Pink
Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never
clean
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me
I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin'
right
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else, yeah
LA told me, "You'll be a pop star,
All you have to change is everything you are."
Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty, that just ain't me
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Don't let me get me
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Orgy - Blue Monday
How does it feel to treat me like you do?
When you've laid your hands upon me
And told me who you are
I thought I was mistaken
I thought I heard your words
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now How do I feel
Those who came before me
Lived through their vocations
From the past until completion
They'll turn away no more
And I still find it so hard
To say what I need to say
But I'm quite sure that you'll tell me
Just how I should feel today
I see a ship in the harbor
I can and shall obey
But if it wasn't for your misfortunes
I'd be a heavenly person today
And I thought I was mistaken
And I thought I heard you speak
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now, how should I feel
Now I stand here waiting...
I thought I told you to leave me
When I walked down to the beach
Tell me how does it feel
When your heart grows cold
Pet shop Boys - It's A Sin
As I look back upon my life..
it's always with a sense of shame..
I've always been the one to blame...
For everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a.... it's a sin....
it's a sin..
My father taught me how to be
So pure of thought.. and word and deed..
he didn't quite succeed........
for everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a....... it's a sin...
everything I've ever done..
everything I'll ever do
everyplace I've ever been..
everywhere I'm going to........
it's a sin.....
Father forgive me...
I tried not to do it....
Turned over a new leaf...
then tore right through it...
Whatever you taught me...
I didn't believe it...
Father you fought me..
cuz I didn't care.. and I still don't.. understand.......
Now as I look back upon my life..
it's always with a sense of shame..
I've always been the one to blame..
for everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a......... it's a sin...
it's a sin....
everything I've ever done..
everything I'll ever do..
every place I've ever been..
everywhere I'm going to.....
it's a sin...
it's a sin...
(quiet talking in the background.. rather unintelligible)
(end)
Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams
Sweet dreams are made of this who am I to disagree
I travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
Ooh...hey...ooh...aha, oh...
(rpt 1)
Ooh...hey...oh...
Hold your head up, keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on...
(rpt 2, 1...)
Rascal Flatts - I'm Movin' On
(Phillip White/Vincent Williams)
I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
Ive found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once Im at peace with myself
Ive been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
Im movin on
Ive lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but theyre always the same
They mean no harm but its time that I face it
Theyll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I dont belong
Im movin on
Im movin on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know theres no guarentees, but Im not alone
There comes a time in everyones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldnt
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
Ive loved like I should but lived like
I shouldnt
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
Im movin on
Im movin on
Im movin on
Enigma- Return To Innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
[Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion]
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence.
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
[Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.]
[If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.]
Simply Red- Holding Back The Years
Holding back the years,
Thinking of the fear I've had for so long.
When somebody hears,
Listen to the fear that's gone.
Strangled by the wishes of pater,
Hoping for the arm of mater,
Get to me sooner or later,
Nothing ever could, yeah.
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on.
Chance for me to escape from all I know.
Holding back the tears.
There's nothing here has grown.
I've wasted all my tears,
Wasted all those years.
Nothing had the chance to be good,
Nothing ever could, yeah.
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on
So tight.
ABBA- Chiquitita
Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong
You're enchained by your own sorrow
In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow
How I hate to see you like this
There is no way you can deny it
I can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
I'm a shoulder you can cry on
Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on
You were always sure of yourself
Now I see you've broken a feather
I hope we can patch it up together
Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
So the walls came tumbling down
And your love's a blown out candle
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
There is no way you can deny it
I see that you're oh so sad, so quiet
Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Jefferson Airplane- White Rabbit
One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you, don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice, when she's ten feet tall
And if you go chasing rabbits, and you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah-smoking caterpillar has given you the call
And call Alice, when she was just small
When the men on the chessboard get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom, and your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice, I think she'll know
When logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead
And the white knight is talking backwards
And the red queen's off with her head
Remember what the dormouse said
Feed your head, feed your head
Simon and Garfunkel - I Am A Rock
A winter's day
In a deep and dark
December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.
Gordon Lightfoot- If You Could Read My Mind
If you could read my mind love,
what a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie
about a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
with chains upon my feet.
You know that ghost is me
and I will never be set free
as long as I'm a ghost that you can see.
If I could read your mind love,
what a tale your thoughts could tell.
Just like a paperback novel,
the kind the drugstore sells.
When you reach the part where the heartaches
come the hero would be me.
Heroes often fail.
And you won't read that book again
because the endings just to hard to take.
I walk away like a movie star
who gets burned in a three way script.
Enter number two, a movie queen
to play the scene of bringing all the good things out in me,
but for now love lets be real.
I never thought I could act this way
and I've got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong
but the feelings gone and I just can't get it back.
If you could read my mind love,
what a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie about a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
with chains upon my feet the story always ends.
And if you read between the lines
you'll know that I'm just trying to understand
the feeling that you left.
I never thought I could feel this way
and I got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong
but the feelings gone
and I just can't get it back.
Beatles- Yesterday
Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away.
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go, I don't know,
She wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go, I don't know,
She wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Judy Garland- Over The Rainbow
Words by E. Y. Harburg, Music by Harold Arlen
Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
Linkin Park - Crawling
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence Im convinced that theres just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Chorus
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence Im convinced that theres just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Chorus (Repeat until end)
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (Whispered during chorus)
Linkin Park- Enth E Nd
Hey yo when this first started off it was just Linkin Park...
Then in the middle came Motion Man...
And at the end of it all it was Kutmasta Kut wit a remix [echo]
one thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind I designed this rhyme when I was obsessed with time
all i know, time was just slipping way
and i watched it count down till the end of the day
watched it watch me and the words that i say
the echo of the clock rhythm in my veins
i know that i didn't look out below
and i watched the time go right out the window
trying to grab hold, trying not to watch
i wasted it all on the hands of the clock
but in the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of the time when i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
yo one thing, one thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain the due time
all i know, time to so-socialize like the host of the party
all for shake and made eye contact
party control showing all that
northeast, southwest coast
stand out the window, no opportunity to mingle
i tried to show her, if you could just sense a middle disorder
i brought you back of the thing
like the imaginary man of your dreams
well, you would always seem to make it worth it
a sleek skin i never nerved you
you felt lovin, i never applied a room
without bringing the plan
by any means and means of leaving you teens,
of all those teenage scenes, i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kutmasta Kut Kutmasta Kurt
linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kurt
one thing i don't know how
it doesn't even matter when you look at it now
because when i designed this rhyme i was scared of it all
scared to fall, i hadn't even tried to crawl
and i was forced to run, with you mocking me
stopping me, back stabbing me constantly
remembering all those times you fought with me
watch the clock now chop full of hypocrisy
and now your mouth wishes it could inhale
every single little thing you said and make it expel
every single word you sputter just to get your piece, but it really doesn't matter to me
because from the start to the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of the time when i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter..
in the end
LP- One Step Closer
I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Chorus
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up (2x)
Im about to break!
Chorus
LP- Papercut
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin
Chorus
The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x)
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me (Repeat until end)
Chorus (Repeat until end)
LP - Points Of Authority
Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last
You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life, my pride is broken
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what youve learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what youve learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what youve learned)
You want to share what you've been through
(You live what youve learned)
You love the things I say I'll do
The way I'll hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life, my pride is broken
Chorus
Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last (2x)
Chorus (2x)
LP- Somewhere I Belong
When this began I had nothing to say
I get lost in the nothing thats inside of me (I was confused)
I let it all out to find that Im not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me)
Well I dont think they can see the words reveal
This is the only real thing I got left to feel (nothing to lose)
Just luck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fall is just my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of all the pain I felt so (release all the pain til its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face (I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I imagined it all in my mind (So I implied)
Do I have the negativity?
Cause I cant justify my way when everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose)
Nothing but game, how I went along
And the fault is my own, and the fall is just my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let you off the day I felt so (release all the pain til its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel, anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never make anything until I break away from me
I will break away, and find myself today
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I felt so
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong, Somewhere I belong
LP Easier To Run
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away no one could ever see
Run so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave...
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave...
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel disgraced
It's so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
It's easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made...
It's easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame...to the grave
LP Nobody's Listening
(Come, come, come, comin' at you. Come, coming at you. Come, comin' at you)
Yo, pick the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is "how could you ignore it?"
And drop right back in the cut over basement tracks and rap stack got you
backing us up
Like..Rewind that!
We're just rollin' with the rhythm, rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these not stopping in lyrics and life living, not to be forgotten, still
unforgiven
But in the meantime, there are those who wanna talk this and that, so what?
Suppose that it gets to a point where feelings got to get hurt, and get dirty
with the people spreading the dirt? It goes...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time, I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone
else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure, guessing that it's better, I can't
keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to ride on, the pain gave me
something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood, sweat and tears, the uphill struggle over years, I fear
it
Trash talking and the people it was to, and the people that started it, just
like you
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's listening
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening
(Come, come, come, comin' at you
Come, come, come,, comin' comin' at you
Come, comin', come, comin' at you
Come, come, come, comin' at you from every side)
LP-Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I takes is
another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
'cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in frnt of you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
every step that I take is
another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
and every second I waste
is more than I can take
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
but I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
(tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
(tired of being what you want me to be)
LP-Part Of Me
Part of me wont go away.
Every day reminded how much I hated it.
Weighted against the consequences,
Cant live without it so its senseless.
Want to cut it out of my soul
and just live with a gaping hole.
Take control of my life
and wash out all the burned tastes.
I made the problems in the first place.
Hang my head low cause its part of me.
Youll hardly see right next to the heart of me.
Heard of me?
The moons soon scar.
New cuts cover where the old ones are
and now Im sick of this.
I cant stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity.
Id rather not even be
than the man thats staring in the mirror through me.
(Pre-chorus)
Cut myself free
willingly stop just whats killing me. (4x)
(Chorus)
I feel it everyday.
I feel Im in my way.
I feel it swell up inside,
Swell up inside.
Swallowing me!
(Freedom can be frightening if youve never felt it)
Once its been dealt,
when you feel like youve been touched by something angelic
and then melted down into a pool of peace.
Cease to be,
the animal you used to be.
Removed the broken parts you know were wrong,
and feel the calm when the problems all gone,
and then you start to see
a little piece of yourself that you cant let be.
Memories of the last fight to free yourself
take you to the depths at the bottom of the well
and now you know that you can chose to lose the part in your heart
where your insides bruise.
You can live if youre willing to.
Put a stop to just whats killing you.
(Repeat pre-chorus 4x)
(Chorus)
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams violently, silently.
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams politically.
This part of me won't go away, (Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
A part of me won't go away. (Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
Everywhere I look around I see how everything ought to be.
Every time I see myself there's always something wrong with me.
Everywhere I look around I see how everything ought to be.
And every time I see myself there's always something wrong with me.
(Chorus 2x)
Peace
Orodo
I also post these for Sum1Sun....Please don't let these lyrics set you off, or hurt you, or ruin the songs for you. The message is subtle, but there. With the Linkin Park lyrics, it's less subtle. More in the face. Be well, be strong, stay well, stay strong...
- All Fucked Up
From the album ""
(What the fuck do you think you're looking at? HAHAHAHA!)
I am all fucked up
And I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I am dying on the inside
I want to be happy
But I don't know how
I am all fucked up
And it's always the same
I always get so close
Then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I'm all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
You're happy (repeat)
When you are all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I'm dying on the inside
I want to be happy now
I am all fucked up
And it is always the same
I always get so close, then I let it get away
I got no one but myself to blame
I am all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is gonna be like this
Than think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
- Cry Mandy Moore
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry
It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything
all right....
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
- Don't Let Me Get Me Pink
Never win first place, I don't support the team
I can't take direction, and my socks are never
clean
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me
I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin'
right
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person starin' back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else, yeah
LA told me, "You'll be a pop star,
All you have to change is everything you are."
Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty, that just ain't me
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe
somethin
A day in the life of someone else?
Don't let me get me
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Orgy - Blue Monday
How does it feel to treat me like you do?
When you've laid your hands upon me
And told me who you are
I thought I was mistaken
I thought I heard your words
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now How do I feel
Those who came before me
Lived through their vocations
From the past until completion
They'll turn away no more
And I still find it so hard
To say what I need to say
But I'm quite sure that you'll tell me
Just how I should feel today
I see a ship in the harbor
I can and shall obey
But if it wasn't for your misfortunes
I'd be a heavenly person today
And I thought I was mistaken
And I thought I heard you speak
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now, how should I feel
Now I stand here waiting...
I thought I told you to leave me
When I walked down to the beach
Tell me how does it feel
When your heart grows cold
Pet shop Boys - It's A Sin
As I look back upon my life..
it's always with a sense of shame..
I've always been the one to blame...
For everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a.... it's a sin....
it's a sin..
My father taught me how to be
So pure of thought.. and word and deed..
he didn't quite succeed........
for everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a....... it's a sin...
everything I've ever done..
everything I'll ever do
everyplace I've ever been..
everywhere I'm going to........
it's a sin.....
Father forgive me...
I tried not to do it....
Turned over a new leaf...
then tore right through it...
Whatever you taught me...
I didn't believe it...
Father you fought me..
cuz I didn't care.. and I still don't.. understand.......
Now as I look back upon my life..
it's always with a sense of shame..
I've always been the one to blame..
for everything I long to do..
no matter when or where or who..
has one thing in common too..
it's a.. it's a.. it's a......... it's a sin...
it's a sin....
everything I've ever done..
everything I'll ever do..
every place I've ever been..
everywhere I'm going to.....
it's a sin...
it's a sin...
(quiet talking in the background.. rather unintelligible)
(end)
Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams
Sweet dreams are made of this who am I to disagree
I travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
Ooh...hey...ooh...aha, oh...
(rpt 1)
Ooh...hey...oh...
Hold your head up, keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on...
(rpt 2, 1...)
Rascal Flatts - I'm Movin' On
(Phillip White/Vincent Williams)
I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
Ive found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once Im at peace with myself
Ive been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
Im movin on
Ive lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but theyre always the same
They mean no harm but its time that I face it
Theyll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I dont belong
Im movin on
Im movin on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know theres no guarentees, but Im not alone
There comes a time in everyones life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldnt
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
Ive loved like I should but lived like
I shouldnt
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
Im movin on
Im movin on
Im movin on
Enigma- Return To Innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
[Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion]
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence.
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
[Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.]
[If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.]
Simply Red- Holding Back The Years
Holding back the years,
Thinking of the fear I've had for so long.
When somebody hears,
Listen to the fear that's gone.
Strangled by the wishes of pater,
Hoping for the arm of mater,
Get to me sooner or later,
Nothing ever could, yeah.
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on.
Chance for me to escape from all I know.
Holding back the tears.
There's nothing here has grown.
I've wasted all my tears,
Wasted all those years.
Nothing had the chance to be good,
Nothing ever could, yeah.
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on,
I'll keep holding on
So tight.
ABBA- Chiquitita
Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong
You're enchained by your own sorrow
In your eyes there is no hope for tomorrow
How I hate to see you like this
There is no way you can deny it
I can see that you're oh so sad, so quiet
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
I'm a shoulder you can cry on
Your best friend, I'm the one you must rely on
You were always sure of yourself
Now I see you've broken a feather
I hope we can patch it up together
Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
So the walls came tumbling down
And your love's a blown out candle
All is gone and it seems too hard to handle
Chiquitita, tell me the truth
There is no way you can deny it
I see that you're oh so sad, so quiet
Chiquitita, you and I know
How the heartaches come and they go and the scars they're leaving
You'll be dancing once again and the pain will end
You will have no time for grieving
Chiquitita, you and I cry
But the sun is still in the sky and shining above you
Let me hear you sing once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Try once more like you did before
Sing a new song, Chiquitita
Jefferson Airplane- White Rabbit
One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you, don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice, when she's ten feet tall
And if you go chasing rabbits, and you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah-smoking caterpillar has given you the call
And call Alice, when she was just small
When the men on the chessboard get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom, and your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice, I think she'll know
When logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead
And the white knight is talking backwards
And the red queen's off with her head
Remember what the dormouse said
Feed your head, feed your head
Simon and Garfunkel - I Am A Rock
A winter's day
In a deep and dark
December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.
Gordon Lightfoot- If You Could Read My Mind
If you could read my mind love,
what a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie
about a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
with chains upon my feet.
You know that ghost is me
and I will never be set free
as long as I'm a ghost that you can see.
If I could read your mind love,
what a tale your thoughts could tell.
Just like a paperback novel,
the kind the drugstore sells.
When you reach the part where the heartaches
come the hero would be me.
Heroes often fail.
And you won't read that book again
because the endings just to hard to take.
I walk away like a movie star
who gets burned in a three way script.
Enter number two, a movie queen
to play the scene of bringing all the good things out in me,
but for now love lets be real.
I never thought I could act this way
and I've got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong
but the feelings gone and I just can't get it back.
If you could read my mind love,
what a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie about a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
with chains upon my feet the story always ends.
And if you read between the lines
you'll know that I'm just trying to understand
the feeling that you left.
I never thought I could feel this way
and I got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong
but the feelings gone
and I just can't get it back.
Beatles- Yesterday
Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away.
Now it looks as though they're here to stay.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go, I don't know,
She wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go, I don't know,
She wouldn't say.
I said something wrong,
Now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Judy Garland- Over The Rainbow
Words by E. Y. Harburg, Music by Harold Arlen
Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
Linkin Park - Crawling
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence Im convinced that theres just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Chorus
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence Im convinced that theres just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Chorus (Repeat until end)
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (Whispered during chorus)
Linkin Park- Enth E Nd
Hey yo when this first started off it was just Linkin Park...
Then in the middle came Motion Man...
And at the end of it all it was Kutmasta Kut wit a remix [echo]
one thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind I designed this rhyme when I was obsessed with time
all i know, time was just slipping way
and i watched it count down till the end of the day
watched it watch me and the words that i say
the echo of the clock rhythm in my veins
i know that i didn't look out below
and i watched the time go right out the window
trying to grab hold, trying not to watch
i wasted it all on the hands of the clock
but in the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of the time when i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
yo one thing, one thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain the due time
all i know, time to so-socialize like the host of the party
all for shake and made eye contact
party control showing all that
northeast, southwest coast
stand out the window, no opportunity to mingle
i tried to show her, if you could just sense a middle disorder
i brought you back of the thing
like the imaginary man of your dreams
well, you would always seem to make it worth it
a sleek skin i never nerved you
you felt lovin, i never applied a room
without bringing the plan
by any means and means of leaving you teens,
of all those teenage scenes, i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kutmasta Kut Kutmasta Kurt
linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kurt
one thing i don't know how
it doesn't even matter when you look at it now
because when i designed this rhyme i was scared of it all
scared to fall, i hadn't even tried to crawl
and i was forced to run, with you mocking me
stopping me, back stabbing me constantly
remembering all those times you fought with me
watch the clock now chop full of hypocrisy
and now your mouth wishes it could inhale
every single little thing you said and make it expel
every single word you sputter just to get your piece, but it really doesn't matter to me
because from the start to the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of the time when i tried so hard
i tried so hard
and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall
to lose it all
but in the end
it doesnt even matter..
in the end
LP- One Step Closer
I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Chorus
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up (2x)
Im about to break!
Chorus
LP- Papercut
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin
Chorus
The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x)
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me (Repeat until end)
Chorus (Repeat until end)
LP - Points Of Authority
Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last
You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life, my pride is broken
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what youve learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what youve learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what youve learned)
You want to share what you've been through
(You live what youve learned)
You love the things I say I'll do
The way I'll hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life, my pride is broken
Chorus
Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
And puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last (2x)
Chorus (2x)
LP- Somewhere I Belong
When this began I had nothing to say
I get lost in the nothing thats inside of me (I was confused)
I let it all out to find that Im not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me)
Well I dont think they can see the words reveal
This is the only real thing I got left to feel (nothing to lose)
Just luck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fall is just my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of all the pain I felt so (release all the pain til its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face (I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I imagined it all in my mind (So I implied)
Do I have the negativity?
Cause I cant justify my way when everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose)
Nothing but game, how I went along
And the fault is my own, and the fall is just my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let you off the day I felt so (release all the pain til its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel, anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never make anything until I break away from me
I will break away, and find myself today
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I felt so
I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like Im close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong, Somewhere I belong
LP Easier To Run
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away no one could ever see
Run so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave...
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave...
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel disgraced
It's so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here alone
It's easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made...
It's easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame...to the grave
LP Nobody's Listening
(Come, come, come, comin' at you. Come, coming at you. Come, comin' at you)
Yo, pick the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is "how could you ignore it?"
And drop right back in the cut over basement tracks and rap stack got you
backing us up
Like..Rewind that!
We're just rollin' with the rhythm, rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these not stopping in lyrics and life living, not to be forgotten, still
unforgiven
But in the meantime, there are those who wanna talk this and that, so what?
Suppose that it gets to a point where feelings got to get hurt, and get dirty
with the people spreading the dirt? It goes...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time, I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone
else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure, guessing that it's better, I can't
keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to ride on, the pain gave me
something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood, sweat and tears, the uphill struggle over years, I fear
it
Trash talking and the people it was to, and the people that started it, just
like you
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain...
Tried to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
Called to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody's listening
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's listening
Hand full of anger, Held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening
(Come, come, come, comin' at you
Come, come, come,, comin' comin' at you
Come, comin', come, comin' at you
Come, come, come, comin' at you from every side)
LP-Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I takes is
another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
'cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in frnt of you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
every step that I take is
another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow
just caught in the undertow)
and every second I waste
is more than I can take
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
but I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
i've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
(tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb
i can't feel you there
(tired of being what you want me to be)
LP-Part Of Me
Part of me wont go away.
Every day reminded how much I hated it.
Weighted against the consequences,
Cant live without it so its senseless.
Want to cut it out of my soul
and just live with a gaping hole.
Take control of my life
and wash out all the burned tastes.
I made the problems in the first place.
Hang my head low cause its part of me.
Youll hardly see right next to the heart of me.
Heard of me?
The moons soon scar.
New cuts cover where the old ones are
and now Im sick of this.
I cant stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity.
Id rather not even be
than the man thats staring in the mirror through me.
(Pre-chorus)
Cut myself free
willingly stop just whats killing me. (4x)
(Chorus)
I feel it everyday.
I feel Im in my way.
I feel it swell up inside,
Swell up inside.
Swallowing me!
(Freedom can be frightening if youve never felt it)
Once its been dealt,
when you feel like youve been touched by something angelic
and then melted down into a pool of peace.
Cease to be,
the animal you used to be.
Removed the broken parts you know were wrong,
and feel the calm when the problems all gone,
and then you start to see
a little piece of yourself that you cant let be.
Memories of the last fight to free yourself
take you to the depths at the bottom of the well
and now you know that you can chose to lose the part in your heart
where your insides bruise.
You can live if youre willing to.
Put a stop to just whats killing you.
(Repeat pre-chorus 4x)
(Chorus)
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams violently, silently.
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams politically.
This part of me won't go away, (Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
A part of me won't go away. (Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
Everywhere I look around I see how everything ought to be.
Every time I see myself there's always something wrong with me.
Everywhere I look around I see how everything ought to be.
And every time I see myself there's always something wrong with me.
(Chorus 2x)
Peace
Orodo