More Freakin Flashes at a wedding!!
I am crying a bit as I read your responses to my earlier posting, thank you guys. The strange thing is that everytime I think about last night, I literally feel my throat trying to close and some of that gagging reflex, not as bad as last night.
My T says that each time I relive it that it helps take some of the pain away. I suppose this is a good thing then?
My best friend got married today, his support has been wonderful, we work together he knows MOST of the story. However, I flashed again at his wedding that when my biological brother "the perp" got married for the second time, he eloped and had me as his best man. Why the F*** would he want me there? This was almost 20 years ago, but I guess I get angry when I think about WHY he would want me there? Our "relationship" continued a few years into his second marriage.
Last night and today I was feeling a bit "WHY ME" and "What did I do wrong" crapola. I know the why is because I was an baby and he could do what he wanted. I KNOW I did nothing wrong. Just feeling sorry for myself, and you know what, we all have earned that right!
YOU are my REAL brothers, NOT him. He is just a family memebr I run into once in a while. So, again, THANK YOU MY BROTHERS! I love you all for your support and help!
Thanks, again, for listening to me vent!
PEACE and GOD BLESS!
TJ
My T says that each time I relive it that it helps take some of the pain away. I suppose this is a good thing then?
My best friend got married today, his support has been wonderful, we work together he knows MOST of the story. However, I flashed again at his wedding that when my biological brother "the perp" got married for the second time, he eloped and had me as his best man. Why the F*** would he want me there? This was almost 20 years ago, but I guess I get angry when I think about WHY he would want me there? Our "relationship" continued a few years into his second marriage.
Last night and today I was feeling a bit "WHY ME" and "What did I do wrong" crapola. I know the why is because I was an baby and he could do what he wanted. I KNOW I did nothing wrong. Just feeling sorry for myself, and you know what, we all have earned that right!
YOU are my REAL brothers, NOT him. He is just a family memebr I run into once in a while. So, again, THANK YOU MY BROTHERS! I love you all for your support and help!
Thanks, again, for listening to me vent!
PEACE and GOD BLESS!
TJ