Indygal,
I love the sarcasm, and pardon for the humor, but 'mama's advice' sounded like some American country song! Except, before the dog dies, he takes off with the pickup truck?
Seriously, I am sorry that you are dealing with such difficulties. I know how 'personality disordered' we survivors can be, having several myself. I hope things will settle a little more for you soon. Meantime, please be gentle with and take care of yourself.
Leosha