Mom Po ssable trigger

[Rod2112]

So I was adopted and I met my real Mom when I was 16. just writing this post is trigging for me I met her alone flew across the states and she the first night i got there started touching me and things happened anyhow I trying to tip around and and not set anything off for myself again. So I have been having medical issue So I dont know my medical history at all. my real mom wont saw that the abuse happened surprise there but that was almost 20 yeah ago. I guess I feel this need to mend things I have no idea why. maybe I am looking for something to happen instead of what I got. I wanted them to at least admit the Fact that it happened. The thought of me just playing nice just to get along would include if it came up that I made this story up witch I never did so and i WOULDNT EVEN SAY I DID. So you know the whole saying about letting sleeping dog lay well Yeah maybe thats what should happen here i know she is on facebook and even today 25 plus years later. I started to feel really sick about everything when I had to type the womans name in the search field. So I of course had to stop. I now have chronic pain and I have been dealing with that for the last two years. Just not sure I can open up this can of worms and deal with this. any thoughts its been a while since i Have been on a couple of years.

 

[tommyb]

(Rod2112)

I want to give thoughts and support. It's only that your post is kind of unclear due to the rush of your passions. If you don't mind, if it's not too much to ask, maybe you could click the edit button at the right hand corner of your post (you can see it if you're logged in) and separate the above paragraph a bit.

Like I don't know what "...my real mom won't saw that the abuse happened ..." except I think it's "...my real mom won't say that the abuse happened..."

If that's what you meant, then I wanted to let you know that you are surrounded here by people who understand why the acknowledgement of the abuse is so important. People not from abuse think it's healthier for the victim to forget all about it, especially if, it seems, the victim is the only one who remembers it. In real life your flesh remembers, you mind, your emotions, your own actual memory, and their advice is the worst. Live in your truth. Heal. Write away.

 

[une.vie.d.espoir]

yes we are here for you, I feel bad what hapend to you. Was not supose too.

Take care,

Jean-Pierre