mitigating the demands we make

[markgreyblue]

in coming back the United States I have found new
ideas and exuberances for the work i have ahead

but also a new pleasure in these.

self responsibility is good and happy

but also - i find i am exhausted -

i think that if i was demanded to perform
without reward or rest -

then i am noticing perhaps i am doing now this to myself as well -

i will not take second best in my work -

but also - i must learn to mitigate my personal demands on me - so that i am not abusing myself too.

i have energy - but can i be my own good king?
aka can i mitigate my self demands -

so that i stay well -

and also so i see in others - or for others - a care for all they do - and watch - and care for them - in equal exchange -

it's a mix - but i think - we can only take care of others -

as good as we are to ourselves?

that we do not demand the sky - and moon -to the point of falling over backwards and foaming at the mouth.

it isn't easy -

anyways - i am not sure that's all to be said here - ..

ur thoughts?

 

[markgreyblue]

and i kind of think it's all of our lives

jobs - to learn how to manage our lives -

and the work to keep all that going

to me love is the chance to care really well

for another - the good stuff -

and then make the space for the probs he has.

like a friend of mine - gets overwhelmed in certain -arenas - so easily -

likewise -

it may be clear to him that i do too -

and i am working on mine.

loving is guiding us through those 'iffy' spaces -

though they might not be tough for us individually-

the love is to be patient with someone through

those iffy spaces for him -

and a lattitude for my growing edge as well -

it's we are ever growing.

 

[markgreyblue]

whatever

 

[markgreyblue]

laters hombres