Metamorphoses.

Metamorphoses.

brian-z

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This is the life we are given, we must do with it what we can. If it gets better or worst we still must live it. For six hours Ive been sitting at this computer trying to have a metamorphosis into a digital being whos body and mind cant betray him. But that wont happen I am here and this is my life. I can no longer do even simple task, like boiling egg.

On my way to the airport I had a sharp pain in my left side. At first I thought it was just a cramp from sitting in the same position for to long. But it got worse. Several hours later I was in the ER. I was given morpheme, and made as comfortable as I could be. After a while an Indian Doctor came into see me, he is a specialist on genetic diseases. He explained to me what was happening to me. The problem was In my brain, pains in my left side is an indication that I am now developing angiomas in the right hemisphere of my brain. The spasms are caused because there is presser on my spinal cord or brain stem. With out a CT theres no way to be sure. I didnt want another damn CT. After a few more hours I left I didnt want to be admitted, no more tests.

This is my life now I cant change it. Im not going on a fruitless search for a magic pill. Ive live through everything else life has thrown at me Ill take this as it comes.

Nothing, absolutely nothing gives you the right to hide from life. Your life is yours and it must be lived. There is nothing you can do, no one you can blame, nothing excuses you from your obligation to live your life. We must all face what ever challenges are given to us. We can not give our burdens to another, nor can we take it from someone else. Each man must face his own destiny.
 
Brian you are my favourite VAGABOND. You express is so completely and it leaves only one interpretation.

Your friend
Mike

P.S. Keep me posted ok Brian. You have no idea how much I admire you. Would that I had your courage
 
hi Brian, I am unsure what you are saying.
It sounds really heavy this health issue you are facing.
I hope I am wrong ,but it sounds like you just want to give up the fight and live in pain.
Life gives us whatever it does but you dont have to put up with it.
There are no majic pills like you say but you should give any possible theraputic cures a try.
I have lived thru my physical pains I have endurede the dreaded ct scan ( although not for something as serious as yours is) with the injected dye
and the misserable headaches that follow.
Each day brings a new fountain of strength to draw from. Hopefully tomorrow your fountain will have extra for you.
 
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