memory (TRIGGER WARNING)

[beccy]

Don't know why I'm writing this really, but I just need to share with someone who understands the complexities of all this stuff;

My bf is gradually remembering some of things things surrounding his SA with the teacher at his school; the man's room, the stairs, sitting in a chair in his room feeling fear, etc..
I am so afraid for him at the moment about when he remembers more and what it might do to him. I want to be real support for him in these situations, but am afraid that I will be too emotional.....I just can't bear to think what might have happened to him, I love him so much and it breaks my heart to think how hurt he's been.

I HATE THE BASTARD WHO DID THIS
I HATE HIM SO MUCH I WANT TO SCREAM AND SCREAM
I FEEL I COULD ATTACK HIM IF HE WERE STILL ALIVE
I WOULD SCREAM AT HIM HOW EVIL IT IS WHAT HE DID
HOW HE HAD NO RIGHT
HOW HE ABUSE HIS POSITION


I'm sorry I just had to type all that. I just wnat to cry and cry and cry...

peace
Beccy

 

[Brokenhearted]

Probably for the first time in my life do I understand that there truly is EVIL in the world....I used to have almost an idealized view of the world in that "surely it can't be as bad as all that..." wanting to believe things were not really that bad anywhere.

It is a horrible awakening and it is sexual abuse of a child that has made me realize how truly bad EVIL is.