Memory recall validation concerns
TRIGGERS My healing journey started with opening Pandora's box of rape memories. They included visceral deep emotional reactions, physical manifestations, and purposefully recalling memories and reasons for what happened in my childhood.
Retrospection has often taken up my time, and some of that has been regards of the neglect of my mental and emotional health by either parent(separately = divorced) and many interactions with therapists or psychiatry. What gets me when I think retrospectively is how I research the thinking of psychiatry of that time to present. I'm finding some things that create concern for myself, and any survivor.
There have been posts from brothers here, who have made comments of interactions with their therapist who flat out denied the revelation of their client. How that therapist can live with their invalidation of such trauma is beyond comprehension. Survivor comprehension is likely different than the bias of analytical zeitgeist of psychology at various times.
Let me link this, one of others around the internet:
Memories of Childhood Abuse
Though I would describe that article as nuanced and careful, it still implies a careful review of any potential therapist for our therapy. The idea I take from it, though I may have various complexities of trauma, it's my job to make sure the therapist is up to date, aware of csa issues and the needs to heal. I consider that quite a burden for the client with complex ptsd, and other added concerns.
I recall the burden on me to find my therapist. I searched online for specific criteria, and found the best in my view were never in my insurance network! Why is that?! What awareness of the epidemic of csa is the insurance industries responsibility? Is it our job to push awareness, or ongoing therapy and insurance journals to update their breadth of training? We know humans can only do so much and at some point can ease into laissez-faire.
It's apparent to me, my suppression of rape, the molestation, and bullying is partly laissez-faire of my own creation. I could sense, or my subconscious could sense that stirring those memories would lead down a road of deep emotional impact and difficulties. Which I answer with a simple = Yup!
So, when I consider the broad picture of our advocacy to heal, our own search for therapy, our burdens complexity and the wall of vexing interference from the institutions meeting out services for us, I slump into my chair with reservations of our needs and progress? There's misinformation, news that implies powerful memes and intents that purportedly imply institutional concern. Such as arrests of sex stings, or the Executive Branch directly affects outcomes of such stings. One must recall there are 3 branches of government. Exec. Legis. and Judicial. That last takes the role to enforce laws, and does that role somewhat autonomously. With the recent exception of immigration. Which has shown to be misguided and puerile in regard to application of policy.
All that aside, the influences we face seem to undermine our progress if the institutions that serve us are let to slide while powers with policy initiatives sidetrack our means to heal. What a joke that such a realization has to be considered, that on top of complex ptsd for some, there are outside deviations from progress. Real, or imagined takes time to sort out. There's mounting evidence that role backs of the ACA could influence the troubles of our poorer survivors away from ongoing therapy. What too will happen to walk-in services if budgets are cut that support them. Need we be aware of worry? I don't yet know?
This concern stems from reviewing research first, and noting an ongoing display of misguided progress by the powers that run our lives. I watch those things, it's in my interest, it's in my children's futures interest. And whether this impedes my healing is up for debate. Why not give me your opinions and experiences so some of this can be worked out in a thoughtful discourse.
Thanks brothers.
Retrospection has often taken up my time, and some of that has been regards of the neglect of my mental and emotional health by either parent(separately = divorced) and many interactions with therapists or psychiatry. What gets me when I think retrospectively is how I research the thinking of psychiatry of that time to present. I'm finding some things that create concern for myself, and any survivor.
There have been posts from brothers here, who have made comments of interactions with their therapist who flat out denied the revelation of their client. How that therapist can live with their invalidation of such trauma is beyond comprehension. Survivor comprehension is likely different than the bias of analytical zeitgeist of psychology at various times.
Let me link this, one of others around the internet:
Memories of Childhood Abuse
Though I would describe that article as nuanced and careful, it still implies a careful review of any potential therapist for our therapy. The idea I take from it, though I may have various complexities of trauma, it's my job to make sure the therapist is up to date, aware of csa issues and the needs to heal. I consider that quite a burden for the client with complex ptsd, and other added concerns.
I recall the burden on me to find my therapist. I searched online for specific criteria, and found the best in my view were never in my insurance network! Why is that?! What awareness of the epidemic of csa is the insurance industries responsibility? Is it our job to push awareness, or ongoing therapy and insurance journals to update their breadth of training? We know humans can only do so much and at some point can ease into laissez-faire.
It's apparent to me, my suppression of rape, the molestation, and bullying is partly laissez-faire of my own creation. I could sense, or my subconscious could sense that stirring those memories would lead down a road of deep emotional impact and difficulties. Which I answer with a simple = Yup!
So, when I consider the broad picture of our advocacy to heal, our own search for therapy, our burdens complexity and the wall of vexing interference from the institutions meeting out services for us, I slump into my chair with reservations of our needs and progress? There's misinformation, news that implies powerful memes and intents that purportedly imply institutional concern. Such as arrests of sex stings, or the Executive Branch directly affects outcomes of such stings. One must recall there are 3 branches of government. Exec. Legis. and Judicial. That last takes the role to enforce laws, and does that role somewhat autonomously. With the recent exception of immigration. Which has shown to be misguided and puerile in regard to application of policy.
All that aside, the influences we face seem to undermine our progress if the institutions that serve us are let to slide while powers with policy initiatives sidetrack our means to heal. What a joke that such a realization has to be considered, that on top of complex ptsd for some, there are outside deviations from progress. Real, or imagined takes time to sort out. There's mounting evidence that role backs of the ACA could influence the troubles of our poorer survivors away from ongoing therapy. What too will happen to walk-in services if budgets are cut that support them. Need we be aware of worry? I don't yet know?
This concern stems from reviewing research first, and noting an ongoing display of misguided progress by the powers that run our lives. I watch those things, it's in my interest, it's in my children's futures interest. And whether this impedes my healing is up for debate. Why not give me your opinions and experiences so some of this can be worked out in a thoughtful discourse.
Thanks brothers.
