Memories becoming more vivid

[sportinrucks]

Its been 13 years since I was raped multiple times, 3 years since I told someone and a few months since I sought help in rehab.

My memories of the incidents were vague but the more I talk, the more they come. Today I was waking up from a nap after work and actually felt like it was happening to me for a sec.

My friends wonder why I stay inside my house more often and sleep all the time. My anger is starting to come back and at times I am furious and everyone I come in contact with sees it. Im feeling like Im drifting farther away.

 

[roadrunner]

Sportinrucks,

This sounds to me like you are depressed, at least, and perhaps suffering from PTSD. These are so common among survivors but can be treated and controlled. Have you told a doctor about this?

I see you've been around awhile, but it's good to see you posting now. It will help you if you can talk about the things that are troubling you.

Much love,
Larry

 

[sportinrucks]

I'm on Lexapro and Ativan. I was drinking on it and it would really make me depressed so Im cutting back and putting an exercise routine back into my life.

Thanks, for your reply, I am so glad that I found this site.