meeting with the church trustees
On friday i am meeting with the parish trutees on my 40 year old sexual abuse issue and don,t know what to except., Will they seek out the truth or just try to cover their ass. 40 years ago, at the age of 12 I became Fathers special boy for the day. After serving Sat. morring mass father R ask me to help him move some boxes in the basement . Little did I know that would change my life forever.
After a short time Father cornored me and tried to get my pants off as he foundaled me . I told him NO STop this .
I need this ,God wants you to do this for me.,was his repley.
God wants me to let this man rape me ? I let my guard down and the next thing I knew he was inside me. I knew that MY GOD didn,t want me to let him do this so I began to push him off. Father didn,t like that so he tortured me by grabing my testicles and crushing the life out of them . To this day my right side is that of a 12 year old boy, I am half man half boy.
Well my GOD helped me and I was able to get lose and run from him, never to be an alter boy again. After a few weeks I told on him, but ever one talked me in to not going to the police.
I went before the church trutees instead and told my story but they put me on trial and not Father R. In the end they said my story wasn,t beliveable and did nolthing to Father.
So now 40 years later I go before the church trustees and don,t know what to think.
Will they seek the truth or just cover their ass.?
I worry that if I get no where with them it will send me into a deep depression.
I need to move forward with this for my healing but it may be a big blackhole I walking into.
I know I have you guys at my side and I feel great power from that .THANK Muldoon
After a short time Father cornored me and tried to get my pants off as he foundaled me . I told him NO STop this .
I need this ,God wants you to do this for me.,was his repley.
God wants me to let this man rape me ? I let my guard down and the next thing I knew he was inside me. I knew that MY GOD didn,t want me to let him do this so I began to push him off. Father didn,t like that so he tortured me by grabing my testicles and crushing the life out of them . To this day my right side is that of a 12 year old boy, I am half man half boy.
Well my GOD helped me and I was able to get lose and run from him, never to be an alter boy again. After a few weeks I told on him, but ever one talked me in to not going to the police.
I went before the church trutees instead and told my story but they put me on trial and not Father R. In the end they said my story wasn,t beliveable and did nolthing to Father.
So now 40 years later I go before the church trustees and don,t know what to think.
Will they seek the truth or just cover their ass.?
I worry that if I get no where with them it will send me into a deep depression.
I need to move forward with this for my healing but it may be a big blackhole I walking into.
I know I have you guys at my side and I feel great power from that .THANK Muldoon