making a list

[shadowkid]

has anyone had a therapist ask you to make a list of the things you think affected you the most from your past? a therapist from the clinic i'm supposed to go to called and asked me to make a list and bring it with me .dont know if i got enough paper ! also if i make the list do you think i'll still have to tell them everything? i mmean face to face ,? adam heh its weird how we can see stuff i guess ,has anybody noticed if you break the word therapist down it becomes the- rapist! huh? weird

 

[roadrunner]

Adam,

I think you should be absolutely honest in preparing your list: be strict with yourself on this point right from the very first moment.

But that doesn't mean you will have to talk about things in detail. The T will want to keep you safe and focused on the task at hand. Sure, your abuse history is all tangled up with that, but let the T guide you.

And at the same time, don't hesitate to tell the T how you feel about doing this list and every other issue you have at the clinic. These people are there to help you, and any info you can give them will help you do that. They especially need to know about things that make you feel uncomfortable.

Paper: Know what you mean Adam! My T asked me to work on a pretty elaborate survivor story as we go along, and I'm up to 20 pages and not past 1972 yet! But she says I'm on the right track so I keep scribbling.

Much love,
Larry

 

[Derdlecar]

Adam,

Yes to all of the above. I had to make a list. Didn't like it but it was very helpful. Had to tell everything but the T let me set the pace. Didn't have to tell untill I was ready. that was good for me too! and I knew that therapist was the rapist and that really has nothing to do with anything.

Love ya

Darrel

 

[shadowkid]

well the list isnt done and i'm leaving tomorrow guess i'll have to kinda condense it huh? ,i dont know what to say e3xcept thanks for all the help i got here . i cant say goodbye ,i cant think goodbye or shadow will win and i wont go . adam is afraid to go because hes gonna have to give up his crutch ,meth, shadow is afrad cause he thinks the therapist are gonna make him disappear. maybe i'll just ask one more question i was thinking that if a person was really like round the bed crazy ,would he know it? or would he think hes just fine and everybody else is crazy? heh tough question . thanks guys for making me part of your family ,i hope to be able to be here again . like they said on the plane on 9 11 'lets roll'. yes i'm scared ,no i dont wanna go ,i dont wanna lose what i found here ,its a big risk for me ,what if i find out that ms was just something i needed so bad that i imagined it all one night flying on a meth buzz? i guess its life or death time now at 5 10 116 lbs i'm killing my body slowly ,just trying to stay alive. my memories of all of you will keep me going .to where ever i'm supposed to be . adam