Make Up My Mind!

[Wuamei]

Some of the story is over in "Male Authority Figures." But here's what's happening now:

I've been getting pushed a bit more to get certified as a water aerobics instructor, and with the ripoff I just experienced with this home study course I won't be getting it any time soon.

I've also gotten fed up with stupid regulations & classes & meetings about privacy, safety and all this bureaucratic red tape we've been over & over.

One manager told me if I didn't take a certain class yesterday I wouldn't be able to work there anymore. I thot it was pretty clear.

This of course, after being told about the classes
at the last minute, then being told one was in one town and arriving there to find out it was in another. Being told this next one would be my last chance.

Well I already had appointments scheduled I refused to change. I was ready to just drop the whole water aerobics thing, at least for awhile.

So yesterday I call both managers to tell them this, and they both proceed to ask me to please stay on, they'll work on the schedule etc.

The manager who told me I had to take the class that day tells me there's another one in two weeks & I can take that one. Doesn't even mention the certification, tho I told him it would be awhile till I could find an opportunity plus the money I had lost on this last farce.

Make up my mind!

Well I went ahead & quit at the one place I just took on the extra classes at. Getting up so early
and doing so much traveling has just been getting the best of me especially with my fibro flaring with all the new crap coming up out of my shitty past!

So I'm now back to the few hours a week I was doing at the nearby town where I've already been for over 2 years, where the manager (male) I've been having the hassles about the classes is.

Probably for the best as this gives me enuf classes to get the basic exercise I need & I can go & do more or do yoga there or at home with a video or whatever. Also keeps me getting a little pay, free membership, and putting a bit into my social security FWIW.

OK I know I'm ranting, raving, venting, rambling & babbling!

I just want people to make up my mind!

Victor

 

[outis]

Victor,

If I said "follow your heart" would that help?

Seriously, I know it's tough sometimes to recognize when we're getting railroaded, and when we're judging things too harshly based on past experiences.

Have you chatted it up with your wife at all? What's her take on the way they've been treating you? I turn to my wife a lot, since she knows a lot of my history and has years of observing my behaviors in different situations. (Plus, I like her, but that's a perk!)

You, on April 24:

Trying to take more walks, even short ones. Even lay back in my recliner by the window & watch the many birds in the feeder just outside it.

Any chance a little relaxation like that will help you sort the issues in your mind?

Thanks,

Joe

 

[Lloydy]

Victor
I'm beginning to wonder if we don't get a bit ambitious as we get better ?

We clear our heads of all kinds of shite, regain a lot of self confidence / esteem, look back at what we've missed and suddenly find ourselves wanting to it all.

We can do so much we didn't do before I know, but it is a temptation to get all fired up and try everything. And forget about sitting in the garden cremating a steak with a glass of whatever we drink and watching the sun go down.

I know that I'm getting close to the stage when something has got to go. My college course, the work I do for Axis, the Off-Road Club, building a new 4x4 and of course helping here all take time.
So I think it's time I let someone else do all the hard work for the Club and sit back and enjoy the driving. I'm not giving that up for anyone, it's my sanity.
And it's so important that we have some distraction to relax us.

Dave

 

[Wuamei]

Joe, Dave:

Very good thots thanks! But it appears circumstances are working to make up my mind on this. I'll refer you to my new post "Waiting for the other shoe to drop" which I'm putting on now...

Thanks

Victor