Lonliness and fear

[sportinrucks]

First off, I wanted to say that I am greatful to find this site with such a supportive group of people. As I read through some of the posts I am starting to realize that I am not alone in my struggle.

The topic of lonliness seems to be a big thing for me. Ever since I disclosed what had happened to me to my parents, to certain friends, it's like I fell off the face of the earth. I go out with a few people now and then but I feel empty inside. I am kind of in a lonely place right now. I fear my future, I fear I will not reach my goals, my dreams. I am saddened to see where I am right now compared to where I want to be. There's alot of people that I bump into I knew in high school and I feel ashamed. Ashamed of where I am right now in life although I am making progress in the right direction, ashamed that the Alex they thought they knew was just a front.

Im am afraid to disclose the new Alex. I don't even know who the real Alex is.

 

[WalkingSouth]

Alex,

Just want to reassure you that you are sooo not alone, Bro. You seem to be describing me a year or so back. Please know that it does get better, but we have to be willing to do the hard work. You've taken a big step just coming here and finally posting, Starting to talk about it.

Just stick around and we'll do this together.

Lots of love,

John