lonely, wicked thoughts

[markgreyblue]

thought and realized a lot about the sharing of the definition of relationships - well the important ones in my life -

cried like crazy this morning thinking of the relationships i have lost -

sitting in a cafe had to leave because could not maintain - the peace and maturity inside -

started knowing throughout the morning that is is needed - being perfect is not healthy
but being humane is

need sex - all sorts of things crying too
-sports- horse back riding - and that the ocassional bad behavior is gonna happen
"wicked"

if you can't be good

- just then be
....a little ....
naughty
- don't like to encourage sadism - cause condoning it nourture -unconsciousness or
so i am projecting???

 

[markgreyblue]

for the sake of responsibility these thoughts came from a night filled with fearful dreams and a wish that i could have been in bed with my best friend - and all that stuff -
so facing the day - alone set the waterworks going uncontrollably - and posting -

 

[Aden]

x

 

[Abe]

a little bit of *naughty* is good for the soul...