Locked in to my disguises

[reality2k4]

Yeah,

its hard to think when I feel so locked in all my emotions of the past, like nobody is real, but everyone he meets he loves and wants to be part of his life and say.

Hey, this is me, and it is like the little boy who is the man who does not know how to really make relationships for some reason or other.

I try, and try in life, but what or how hard can it be?
I tend to give up and shy away, but the little boy says, hey, you should have done this or that.

Why? Am I still wanting relationships when I am resigned to livint my life alone, and not being able to make relationships when I was a teen.

Maybe it was because I had so many hangups as a teen, and it made me feel unworthy of any love.
Hold on though, if I ask for it, then do I have a right to have friends on just that basis alone.

I just dont allow myself to be me, for fear of the unknown,

ste

 

[roadrunner]

Ste,

I think that problem affects a lot of us. We have learned from an early date how important it is that no one should know. If they do, what will they think of us? How could they possibly like us, much less love us?

That's of course the little guy speaking on the basis of a frightened confused child's very limited resources. In trying to break away from that mind-set, one thing that helped me was a saying I saw somewhere: "I would rather be rejected for who I am than accepted for who I am not."

That's a risky and dangerous step to take, but maybe it will seem less so if we consider that the world of truths is the only one we really get to live in.

Much love,
Larry

 

[desvelar]

I am a teen and have sufferd many upon many upon to many to count tmes where my love was broken and my heart was ripped out. Everyone wants another and it can drive us to madness. But take things slow and live in the moment the past myay say you cannot do this or it will make you think you cant but you can you just have to belive in your self evenif you dont ther is some one out there that does. Liek I do I belive that you can get someone. Dont worry you may get burnt alot but it is bound to happen. in the end you will find someone. Do not put up a barrier though becuase a barrier may push that special someone away.