little weird things

[BlueOne]

OK, so I think I'm dealing pretty well with all the crap that's been dealt me in my life, but I've still got small things that freak me out. My bf calls them my little weird things, and I guess they are. Like, I'm terrified of the dentist. It doesn't have anything to do with the pain, but I just freak out. They have to give me gas to calm me down and I have to have somebody I trust go with me and be there. I can't even get a back rub without tensing up (which is, of course, the exact opposite reaction one hopes for from a back rub). And the weirdest thing is getting my hair cut. I don't know why, but I completely dread it. My hair's always shaggy because I feel like I'm gonna pass out when I go to get it cut. These little residual things really add up and piss me off sometimes. Anybody else have little weird things that don't make much sense?

--Lucas

 

[Dan01]

Blue, you hit a nerve with me, when you mentioned the dentist I absolutely hated the dentist I couldn't stand having to lay still and have their hands in my mouth. Latley though it has been better.
With me the hair cut thing is a bigger problem right now. I hate being in the barber chair and having to stay still, I think I figured it out thought, I hate sitting there, the chair facing all these men and having them look straight at me and their isn't a damnd thing I can do about it. I finally talked with my thearapyst about this and a few other issures I have when I feel people are looking at me and I feel trapped. We finally figured out that I have severe symptoms of Social anxiety disoreder, he put me on medication and it seems to help quite a bit. Im taking somthing called clonazapam. On an as needed basis. Latley I feel very angry because, I realize that I have had severe anxiety for as long as I can remember and all along I thought it was normal. I was severly verbally abused and physicaly abused by my peers, after they found out I had been molesed by my step father. I am very pissed off right now because of the havoc that bastard has coused in my life!!!
Peace Dan

 

[angry]

Getting my hair cut is the worst. I'm tied up and its a combination of unwanted gentle caressing and a sharp object held to my head. On the other hand I used to love to go to the orthodontist when I was 13 and the 22 year old dental assitants used to put their breasts all over me while they cleaned my teeth. Even when a pretty young girl is cutting my hair I cant take it for some reason. Sometimes they get creeped out and say "your really quiet" or "your making me uncomfortable" or "whats wrong?" or "are you late for an appointment or something?".