Lifelong Battle

MontanaSteve

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Hello Fellow Survivors:

I found this site from a book my therapist provided called Evicting the Perpetrator. It has been helpful so far. This has been a lifelong battle - you all probably have similar stories. I totally blocked out the abuse for a couple of decades- it occurred while I was around 8. It started to come into my memory in my mid twenties. I think I covered up the wound with drinking and sex addiction for years until those things started getting me into trouble. This led me into the rooms of recovery- both AA and Sex Addicts Anonymous which I have been in and out of for years. Most recently I was sober for about 13 years and was able to break the cycle of sex/relationship addiction. However, recovery became more and more difficult because I got closer and closer to my wound without any means to navigate it as the twelve step programs are ill equipped to provide much guidance in this arena. With nothing else to turn to, I started drinking again to dull the pain although I have not left the rooms of recovery. I have not gone back to my sex addiction although I continue to struggle with sexual and gender identity issues which may or may not be connected to the abuse. I decided I would go back into therapy to confront my childhood wound. My new therapist gave me the book and that is why I am here. I am happy that I found this forum. Thank you for listening.
 

.aseity

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Welcome to MS and thank you for sharing. I find encouragement in your brief story. Very sorry you have to be here, but this is a really great place and I hope it does wonders for you. I was just told about that book last night as a recommendation from a fellow survivor. Thank you for being here @MontanaSteve you gone through a lot to be here and I'm glad to meet you brotherman. We're always here to listen to each other and help when we can.
 

Snowman

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Hello Fellow Survivors:

I found this site from a book my therapist provided called Evicting the Perpetrator. It has been helpful so far. This has been a lifelong battle - you all probably have similar stories. I totally blocked out the abuse for a couple of decades- it occurred while I was around 8. It started to come into my memory in my mid twenties. I think I covered up the wound with drinking and sex addiction for years until those things started getting me into trouble. This led me into the rooms of recovery- both AA and Sex Addicts Anonymous which I have been in and out of for years. Most recently I was sober for about 13 years and was able to break the cycle of sex/relationship addiction. However, recovery became more and more difficult because I got closer and closer to my wound without any means to navigate it as the twelve step programs are ill equipped to provide much guidance in this arena. With nothing else to turn to, I started drinking again to dull the pain although I have not left the rooms of recovery. I have not gone back to my sex addiction although I continue to struggle with sexual and gender identity issues which may or may not be connected to the abuse. I decided I would go back into therapy to confront my childhood wound. My new therapist gave me the book and that is why I am here. I am happy that I found this forum. Thank you for listening.
Welcome MontanaSteve. As a relative newcomer myself, I have found great comfort being part of this group. I applaud you for your strength and courage to start therapy again and address your issues. it's not easy, but we are here for you.
 

MontanaSteve

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Welcome MontanaSteve. As a relative newcomer myself, I have found great comfort being part of this group. I applaud you for your strength and courage to start therapy again and address your issues. it's not easy, but we are here for you.
Thanks so much brother! It is a great comfort that this group is here and that I am now a member!
 
(((@MontanaSteve))) - Welcome. I'm sorry you have to be here on this site but glad you found us. Thank you for sharing some of your story. Nobody here is pressuring you to tell your story. When you are ready your inner self will let you know.

I'm sure that this site will help you "confront my childhood wound". We're a brotherhood and our main objective is to help others here on MS. I'm glad that you're back in therapy. Still drinking? I know the people here on MS can help you with that.
 

Tele1

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Welcome MontanaSteve
Hope you find this place helpful. I’ve been on it about half a year. Can’t begin to tell you how much it helped me.
Tele1
 

MontanaSteve

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(((@MontanaSteve))) - Welcome. I'm sorry you have to be here on this site but glad you found us. Thank you for sharing some of your story. Nobody here is pressuring you to tell your story. When you are ready your inner self will let you know.

I'm sure that this site will help you "confront my childhood wound". We're a brotherhood and our main objective is to help others here on MS. I'm glad that you're back in therapy. Still drinking? I know the people here on MS can help you with that.
Thanks so much! Glad to be here for sure. Yes I went back to drinking and am still doing it. It isn't bad yet but it will get there if it continues. I am hoping to find a better way to cope with the wound through therapy and his site etc. Thank you for your response!
 
Yes I went back to drinking and am still doing it.
let's just call it a temporary setback. Hopefully, between therapy and MS, you will be able to stop again
 
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