MontanaSteve
Registrant
Hello Fellow Survivors:
I found this site from a book my therapist provided called Evicting the Perpetrator. It has been helpful so far. This has been a lifelong battle - you all probably have similar stories. I totally blocked out the abuse for a couple of decades- it occurred while I was around 8. It started to come into my memory in my mid twenties. I think I covered up the wound with drinking and sex addiction for years until those things started getting me into trouble. This led me into the rooms of recovery- both AA and Sex Addicts Anonymous which I have been in and out of for years. Most recently I was sober for about 13 years and was able to break the cycle of sex/relationship addiction. However, recovery became more and more difficult because I got closer and closer to my wound without any means to navigate it as the twelve step programs are ill equipped to provide much guidance in this arena. With nothing else to turn to, I started drinking again to dull the pain although I have not left the rooms of recovery. I have not gone back to my sex addiction although I continue to struggle with sexual and gender identity issues which may or may not be connected to the abuse. I decided I would go back into therapy to confront my childhood wound. My new therapist gave me the book and that is why I am here. I am happy that I found this forum. Thank you for listening.
I found this site from a book my therapist provided called Evicting the Perpetrator. It has been helpful so far. This has been a lifelong battle - you all probably have similar stories. I totally blocked out the abuse for a couple of decades- it occurred while I was around 8. It started to come into my memory in my mid twenties. I think I covered up the wound with drinking and sex addiction for years until those things started getting me into trouble. This led me into the rooms of recovery- both AA and Sex Addicts Anonymous which I have been in and out of for years. Most recently I was sober for about 13 years and was able to break the cycle of sex/relationship addiction. However, recovery became more and more difficult because I got closer and closer to my wound without any means to navigate it as the twelve step programs are ill equipped to provide much guidance in this arena. With nothing else to turn to, I started drinking again to dull the pain although I have not left the rooms of recovery. I have not gone back to my sex addiction although I continue to struggle with sexual and gender identity issues which may or may not be connected to the abuse. I decided I would go back into therapy to confront my childhood wound. My new therapist gave me the book and that is why I am here. I am happy that I found this forum. Thank you for listening.