life can be hard

[OKIE MIKE]

I hate this time of year . Because my depresion goes out of control and my stress increases .
most of my family is on the West coast of the US. . I live in Oklahoma and missing my family at this time of year sucks .
I have very few friends here because I have a terrable time leavimg my home and I do not trust most people . PTSD can be a bitch to live with.
Some times I wish that the SOB had killed me
because the pain would have ended then

 

[sabata]

keep your chin up...michael....i have no family near me...live by myself...i am in north texas...how did you end up in oklahoma???steve

 

[markgreyblue]

yes, hang in there Mike, - holidays are a hard time -

if i may offer - the last few years - i decided to do things like serve lunch at Church -
or just go for a walk and take photos -

or both - I found some different kinds of ways to spend christmas -

and then of course - emails - and this site.

i would like to be with good friends - in any case - Mike - hang in there -

MGB

 

[Hauser]

Mike at some point we have to venture out and try to do whatever it is that we need to do. It SOUNDS like you need more people in your life. If you do, then you're going to have to simply ask someone if they're up for company. My excuse whenever I call people or show up is that I simply need to get out of the house.

I, for instance, have struck up a great friendship with a former classmate of mine from a job-training program that I took not too long ago. He's got a little girl (3yo) and 2 boys (5yo and 6yo) and they're so cool to be with. They make me wish I was a father. And they're all over me whenever I show up to visit now.

So.....what's my point? Well I didn't hope/expect anyone to call me, I simply called to see if he wanted to hang out and pursue common intersts and now we have a great friendship and his kids really like me too. It sure beats sitting in the house all day you know?