Letting Go
crisispoint
Registrant
Letting Go
I think it's time to do something with you.
I don't know if I can.
They say that I should forgive you,
That you were probably a victim like me.
That you were acting out your horrors.
I cannot do that. Not yet.
I think I just need to walk away from you.
Say to myself "I'm done with you."
Give up the control you have on me.
But give up that, I give up on the good I felt.
Did you love me? You said you did.
I believed at first, and I felt normal.
Despite the fact that it wasn't normal.
I felt whole, loved, alive, accepted.
Do I have to give that up?
Accept that I was an outcast child?
Or was I an outcast still with you,
But that time choosing to be so.
Did I even choose what I chose?
I was so young, naive, I didn't know
What you gave me was so heavy.
Why did you do this to a child?
Forgiving means being okay with what happened.
I will never be "okay" with what you did,
But maybe today, it's time to reclaim the life
You robbed me of. You have no power anymore.
You have no power anymore.
And now, I think, it's time
To let go of you.
Peace,
Scot
I think it's time to do something with you.
I don't know if I can.
They say that I should forgive you,
That you were probably a victim like me.
That you were acting out your horrors.
I cannot do that. Not yet.
I think I just need to walk away from you.
Say to myself "I'm done with you."
Give up the control you have on me.
But give up that, I give up on the good I felt.
Did you love me? You said you did.
I believed at first, and I felt normal.
Despite the fact that it wasn't normal.
I felt whole, loved, alive, accepted.
Do I have to give that up?
Accept that I was an outcast child?
Or was I an outcast still with you,
But that time choosing to be so.
Did I even choose what I chose?
I was so young, naive, I didn't know
What you gave me was so heavy.
Why did you do this to a child?
Forgiving means being okay with what happened.
I will never be "okay" with what you did,
But maybe today, it's time to reclaim the life
You robbed me of. You have no power anymore.
You have no power anymore.
And now, I think, it's time
To let go of you.
Peace,
Scot