letter to calm
markgreyblue
Registrant
I hope I can ask you to please read this note -
I had written a post about relationships - the one with my friend - in summary the status of the relationship has changed -
and i was given the opportunity from an old doctor's suggestion - that I could learn from my gripe and what that meant about me -
anyway -
i learned in a sense that i started to hide again within a relationship -
what this means is - and what i really want to tell you is that i know what i want - yet - i also know that i can not use a twisted ideal of what i want to satisfy my "need" which from all the abuse became to such a twisted resultant "form" in my head.
does this make sense-?
I know what i want - I cannot be afraid of it -
it has been scary in concept because i have not known how to manage myself - my own stability - tranquility - i am getting there tho -
when i start to get upset i know i have lost it again - and i look to give 'myself' the calming adjusting and focus I need - this my brother is part of what You all have done for me -
Have a great weekend -
xoMark
I had written a post about relationships - the one with my friend - in summary the status of the relationship has changed -
and i was given the opportunity from an old doctor's suggestion - that I could learn from my gripe and what that meant about me -
anyway -
i learned in a sense that i started to hide again within a relationship -
what this means is - and what i really want to tell you is that i know what i want - yet - i also know that i can not use a twisted ideal of what i want to satisfy my "need" which from all the abuse became to such a twisted resultant "form" in my head.
does this make sense-?
I know what i want - I cannot be afraid of it -
it has been scary in concept because i have not known how to manage myself - my own stability - tranquility - i am getting there tho -
when i start to get upset i know i have lost it again - and i look to give 'myself' the calming adjusting and focus I need - this my brother is part of what You all have done for me -
Have a great weekend -
xoMark