Legacy
I have been thinking a lot about the child pornography aspects of my abuse lately. And I had a dawning realization today that the images and videos of my abuse will very likely exist in this world long after I have physically died. That these visual echoes of my abuse, the memorialization of it, will last well beyond me myself. They could exist indefinitely or as long as servers or the internet itself exists.
Ive done a lot of pondering lately about the legacy of the abuse itself upon me as a person. All of those effects, some of which still linger to this day. But, I have never really given much thought to the type of legacy that I want to leave before I myself pass away from this world.
I dont have children, and likely never will. My family itself and my group of friends is very small. So my thoughts have turned to what can I do, in action or words, to leave some sort of legacy? The easy answer seems to be to write something meaningful to me, since I am a writer. I have thought maybe a book of some sort, or a memoir. But, that seems to be a small opposing force to the countless pictures and movies of me being abused. Maybe a website consisting solely of all of the good pictures of myself as boy? Let those more positive images exist on servers indefinitely as well.
So, as I was having this thought today, I thought I would post about it here in this new forum. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions about a good legacy that might in some way counterbalance the abuse and the exploitation, Id love to hear it.
Ive done a lot of pondering lately about the legacy of the abuse itself upon me as a person. All of those effects, some of which still linger to this day. But, I have never really given much thought to the type of legacy that I want to leave before I myself pass away from this world.
I dont have children, and likely never will. My family itself and my group of friends is very small. So my thoughts have turned to what can I do, in action or words, to leave some sort of legacy? The easy answer seems to be to write something meaningful to me, since I am a writer. I have thought maybe a book of some sort, or a memoir. But, that seems to be a small opposing force to the countless pictures and movies of me being abused. Maybe a website consisting solely of all of the good pictures of myself as boy? Let those more positive images exist on servers indefinitely as well.
So, as I was having this thought today, I thought I would post about it here in this new forum. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions about a good legacy that might in some way counterbalance the abuse and the exploitation, Id love to hear it.