Trevor I have been busy with some things and have not read all of your post but this is a place for people to come and help each other by talking it out, as long as you have not been abusive in your post you are fine. Your feelings and concerns reflect what you are facing at the moment and we have all had times where we posted - vented, helped others with a kind word, cursed, screamed, felt low etc. Don't give up, this is like a church, some will help and others need help, some may not reflect the church goals - don't judge the church, it represents healing, MS represents healing. Don't give up on this site or the people here.