kolisha! mailbox cleaning time!
kolisha! mailbox cleaning time!
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Anyhow re: my PM to you earlier... I think I am the one who is suffering a delayed reaction.. I felt OK when I first heard the news and then today I am feeling kind of gross.
We had a big bad fight last night it was a bad day overall then when the news of this suicide hit us then we really lashed out. It was awful. Today I just feel really heavy and tired.
I keep thinking of the guy that is left behind and the two kids.. the kids are half-brothers so they will likely be split up (each live with their father) so that is sad too.
Yuck this whole thing is awful. However she did have some mega problems - was drowning herself in alcohol and drugs ever since I met her, her first kid in fact has some birth defects that are likely due to her smoking/drinking during pregnancy. She was in therapy though but what good is that if you are still drinking. She was a really hard person to be around, obviously very needy, very difficult. It is just an ugly situation all around.
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We had a big bad fight last night it was a bad day overall then when the news of this suicide hit us then we really lashed out. It was awful. Today I just feel really heavy and tired.
I keep thinking of the guy that is left behind and the two kids.. the kids are half-brothers so they will likely be split up (each live with their father) so that is sad too.
Yuck this whole thing is awful. However she did have some mega problems - was drowning herself in alcohol and drugs ever since I met her, her first kid in fact has some birth defects that are likely due to her smoking/drinking during pregnancy. She was in therapy though but what good is that if you are still drinking. She was a really hard person to be around, obviously very needy, very difficult. It is just an ugly situation all around.
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not looking to glorify this person.. just its such a traumatic "way to go" and it is having such a ripple effect over so many people... C is having to pick up the slack for his coworker who may be away from work for a long time.. the mood is just awful at his work place now.. i am freaked out cuz I just saw this girl.. not like she was easy to be around but dammit she jumped from a high rise! Its just shocking.
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I think some people have a powerful "shadow side" to them - it's curious from "our" perspective bec., having been abused or attacked, we can find a way to attribute our mis-behavior to something outside ourselves. I haven't really given much thought lately to "dark" behavior of otherwise "normals" lately - you know - the old Nature/Nurture dichotomy....
Bottom line is: we ALL have the potential to emphasize the blessings or the curses. Some of us are better at our choices than others.
MEANWHILE.
Am still being victimized by stupid Error Message - is there any way y'all could contact Fred or Dave & find out what's up? I have a feeling my messages aren't going through....
Bottom line is: we ALL have the potential to emphasize the blessings or the curses. Some of us are better at our choices than others.
MEANWHILE.
Am still being victimized by stupid Error Message - is there any way y'all could contact Fred or Dave & find out what's up? I have a feeling my messages aren't going through....
I work with computers. Did he follow the proper procedures when testing? After trying the "right" way to fix them, the next things you do are: just give it a light to medium smack on the side of the case, The other bench test (drop it from between 1 and 2 feet onto the bench), the floor test (yup, drop it on the floor then see if it works), then there's the wall test (throw it against the wall, then it duplicates the floor test from there), then the hammers come out, and finally, if you truly want to get a computer to cooperate, get the jumper cables out and give it some juice.
Sorry, no, I have not. I'm a highly trained professional. I do this for a living. I can't just give away all of the trade secrets. lol
Anyway, I had things that I wanted to tell you. I'll try to summarize some here. We talked extensively, and I think have separated permanently. I say think because of all of the dance stuff. I also realized that there is another pattern that appeared. This is the second time that I have tried to do this, and both times, some new major highly important informational bomb has been dropped on me. At the last minute, some highly importand new (to me) stuff is just thrown at me. It's like "I just told you something that is extremely personal and important to me, so, now we can't do what we have talked about until we do something with this". That's the feeling I get from it. This last one was major and I was told that it has never been talked about and NOBODY has ever been told about it. I feel like giving in to the dance, but I know I shouldn't do it.
Anyway, I had things that I wanted to tell you.
I'll try to summarize some here. We talked extensively, and I think have separated permanently. I say think because of all of the dance stuff. I also realized that there is another pattern that appeared. This is the second time that I have tried to do this, and both times, some new major highly important informational bomb has been dropped on me. At the last minute, some highly importand new (to me) stuff is just thrown at me. It's like "I just told you something that is extremely personal and important to me, so, now we can't do what we have talked about until we do something with this". That's the feeling I get from it. This last one was major and I was told that it has never been talked about and NOBODY has ever been told about it. I feel like giving in to the dance, but I know I shouldn't do it.