Just one more week!
Hello - it's been two and a half weeks (Jan 23rd)since the perv sent a total shock through my system & pleaded guilty to 5 charges in court (only because he was on a looser & his barrister new it).
What's it been like since then? It's very difficult to describe! Initially my head was just mush, but I have lost all of the negative electricity that used to flow around my body! I don't constantly run scenarios through my head about what may/may not happen in court as I had been for 16 months. I don't even really think that much about what the sentence may be next Friday (although I may be sent down for contempt of court if it is not custodial). I don't really think much at all, which is a pleasant change...what do 'normal people' fill their heads with? It's been a long time!
I initially just zoned out - was really pleased that I took the week off work, because I just wanted to eat and sleep. I felt the same last week, but couldn't exactly do that back at work!
I am more energetic, get out of bed in a morning, rather than just turning over and avoiding the day! I get things done in the house.
The reality hit me last weekend, Saturday, when I just thought ..'it's nearly over' and had a 30 second sobbing session. It really nearly is!
I am much more cheerful (sometimes too much apparently).
Today, I was handed a card at work from one of my Female co-workers who has a young son - the words:
The sunshine that's always there
Behind clouds of darkest grey
Is sure to soon shine brightly
And chase those clouds away!
For,even the blackest clouds
And the fiercest of storms,
Unfailingly are followed
By bright and beautiful new dawns
So,just hang on in there -
Be as brave as you can be,
For the rainbows of tomorrow
Shall soon be here -
just wait and see!
This was actually written by Barbara J.Laing, but sounds like it could have been written by my co-worker (if you knew her, you'd know what I mean).
Tonight I had a call from another friend, & sometime after the sentencing is carried out (next Friday)... there is going to be a party with me as guest of honour! Hope it's just a good time, and not everyone slavering over me about finally finding peace...I think I'd tell them to just bloody shut up now if I had too!
I finally think there is a future...bring it on!
Best wishes ...Rik
What's it been like since then? It's very difficult to describe! Initially my head was just mush, but I have lost all of the negative electricity that used to flow around my body! I don't constantly run scenarios through my head about what may/may not happen in court as I had been for 16 months. I don't even really think that much about what the sentence may be next Friday (although I may be sent down for contempt of court if it is not custodial). I don't really think much at all, which is a pleasant change...what do 'normal people' fill their heads with? It's been a long time!
I initially just zoned out - was really pleased that I took the week off work, because I just wanted to eat and sleep. I felt the same last week, but couldn't exactly do that back at work!
I am more energetic, get out of bed in a morning, rather than just turning over and avoiding the day! I get things done in the house.
The reality hit me last weekend, Saturday, when I just thought ..'it's nearly over' and had a 30 second sobbing session. It really nearly is!
I am much more cheerful (sometimes too much apparently).
Today, I was handed a card at work from one of my Female co-workers who has a young son - the words:
The sunshine that's always there
Behind clouds of darkest grey
Is sure to soon shine brightly
And chase those clouds away!
For,even the blackest clouds
And the fiercest of storms,
Unfailingly are followed
By bright and beautiful new dawns
So,just hang on in there -
Be as brave as you can be,
For the rainbows of tomorrow
Shall soon be here -
just wait and see!
This was actually written by Barbara J.Laing, but sounds like it could have been written by my co-worker (if you knew her, you'd know what I mean).
Tonight I had a call from another friend, & sometime after the sentencing is carried out (next Friday)... there is going to be a party with me as guest of honour! Hope it's just a good time, and not everyone slavering over me about finally finding peace...I think I'd tell them to just bloody shut up now if I had too!
I finally think there is a future...bring it on!
Best wishes ...Rik