Just Don't Know Anymore *possible trigger?

Just Don't Know Anymore *possible trigger?
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I spent last week in a psychiatric hospital, and this week have been going through a day program thing, but I am scared, I keep thinking I want it all to end, I had to contract for safety, that I would go to hospital before hurt myself, but I am really thinking I want it all to end, maybe I should go back in, but I really don't want to, I am just so scared and don't know, I honestly don't know anymore, so intense, and so scared and don't know if I can be safe. I don't know if I deserve to get the help, I keep thinking maybe everything would be better if I were gone, I keep thinking I need this pain to end, thinking maybe I'm not worth the effort, I just do not know anymore, I am very scared. Sorry about posting this, just needed to rant am so scared.

scott
 
Scott,

You deserve help. You deserve to be well.

I am scared too and I don't know how to deal with it right now. I'm on the edge and I know sometimes it gets that way. But we are getting better and so are you. Reaching out for help, my brother, is a brave thing.

You are scared and so am I. You aren't alone, Scott.

Does it ever end? I don't know, but my therapist reminded me last night that the more we talk about it and try to heal, the less power it will have over us. That's what we all hope for.

And I hope for it for you.

Brother, please reach out again if you need it. I need you here and I want to hear what you have to say.

I love you, Scott. No strings.

Peace,

Scot
 
Scot, you need to call your doctor and make arrangements to get back in the hospital. No one deserves to feel as unsafe as you do right now. We all care about you and are deeply concerned for your safety. You need to get help immediately. You are worth it. Very, very worth it. Please listen to me. Peace, Andrew
 
Scott- Please try to remember that this thing, like all things, works in cycles. Some days are terrifying, I know. But oftentimes tomorrow is better, if not then the next day will be. But there can only be a next day if you stick around to see it. Call your doctor now, if he/she is not available ask to speak to someone who is. Or call a rape crisis hotline (if you PM me where you live I will find a number for you right now). Please keep asking for the help that you deserve. No one should have to feel the pain we feel, but we do and we can endure. Get going now!!! That's an order, not a request. We care. PM me if you need me to help you find a number to call. Please.
 
Scott - Your profile says you are in Michigan, assuming this to be true, I took the liberty of looking up some numbers for you to call in crisis:
S.O.S.
114. N. River
Ypsilanti, MI 48198
Office 313-485-8730
Hotline 313-485-3222

Saginaw Co. Sexual Assault Ctr.
1226 N. Michigan Ave.
Saginaw, MI 48602
517-755-6565

Common Ground Crisis Services
853 Woodward Ave
Pontiac, MI 48341
Office 810-456-8128
Hotline 810-456-0909
Serving Oakland Community

Oakland Crisis Ctr. For
Rape & Sexual Abuse
YWCA Of Pontiac/N.Oakland
92 Whittemore St
Pontiac, Mi 48058
313-334-1274
313-334-1284

Sexual Assault Recovery Assistance
Howell Mi 48843
517-548-4228

Sexual Abuse Survivors Annonymous
Grosse Pointe, MI 48236
313-882-9646

I sent this to you in PM too. Call someone now please, even if the moment has passed.
 
scott -

hopless feelimgs are horrible -

and at times overwhelming

try to remember if you can this will pass

even if not right away

keep moving forward

if you

can and reach out to us

whenever

if you do not want to go to a hospital

do not

see a t as much as possble to see one that you like as a stead fast person you can physically

see and relate to

hospitals for me made me feel worse

and not so good

do what you know will make you feel ok

my t is helpin me learn to calm myself down

but we are here

sometimes calmin myself down means leaving him

tons of voicemails each day

mark
 
Scott
asking for help is the strongest and bravest thing anyone can do, you wont let anyone down by asking.

If you feel bad - ask.

Some of us have got a long way through our recoveries, but we've been to the horrible place you're at believe me. We got through it by asking for help; there's no shame in that at all.

Be strong.
Dave
 
Thank you all for the support, my mind just hasn't been in a good place lately. Hopefully soon I will feel better, as the healing process continues for me and all of you.

scott
 
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