Just a message!
reality2k4
Registrant
Many of you guys are here in different places and times of recovery, for some it is still raw and nothing seems to breach the 24/7 brainstorm of wondering how to tackle what has become an out of control monster.
I am a spiritual being, but why? Some of you, maybe most ask the same thing.
I too cursed God on many occaisions, then got confused like God would not do that to a kid, nor let it happen.
I cried my bitter tears as a child until there were no more left inside, the monster had eaten me away inside.
Anger, frustration, lack of self image, when the world is telling you otherwise, did not shake me to think that was anything real, nothing was in my child world, absolutely nothing.
I met the beast as a child, I could have died, but I survived it to live in the present.
For decades I lived within the guilt of what was bestowed on me, it was worse than torture, because you are torturing yourself from inside, and nobody can stop you doing that.
When I see the world today, there are good, bad and evil ppl who live here, with their greed, falseness of piety and a thousand other things that they harbor within their souls.
Sometimes I too think God gives up on his children, but who? Do we turn to!
I can fully understand the disbelievers, and I am not ever here to preach.
We live in a perverse world, such as God has wiped out in the past, and rescuing the innocent from the wicked of the world.
The social fabric of society means that we are far away from that, and I fear we are getting further,
ste
I am a spiritual being, but why? Some of you, maybe most ask the same thing.
I too cursed God on many occaisions, then got confused like God would not do that to a kid, nor let it happen.
I cried my bitter tears as a child until there were no more left inside, the monster had eaten me away inside.
Anger, frustration, lack of self image, when the world is telling you otherwise, did not shake me to think that was anything real, nothing was in my child world, absolutely nothing.
I met the beast as a child, I could have died, but I survived it to live in the present.
For decades I lived within the guilt of what was bestowed on me, it was worse than torture, because you are torturing yourself from inside, and nobody can stop you doing that.
When I see the world today, there are good, bad and evil ppl who live here, with their greed, falseness of piety and a thousand other things that they harbor within their souls.
Sometimes I too think God gives up on his children, but who? Do we turn to!
I can fully understand the disbelievers, and I am not ever here to preach.
We live in a perverse world, such as God has wiped out in the past, and rescuing the innocent from the wicked of the world.
The social fabric of society means that we are far away from that, and I fear we are getting further,
ste