it sounds bad, but i'm okay. i'm tired from the hormone imbalance in my body, but next week they should start me on replacements. my marriage is in trouble, but i know in my heart i have tried my best. finally, i feel like i finally understand what i need as a person to be happy. i stood up and am demanding my wife meet my needs as a person for affection and intmacy, and i am doing my part in return. i feel like i finally can point to what was driving my sadness, and i know what i need from those in my life to be happy for the first time. it has been a long journey, but i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel it feels, and though i have struggled, right now i really dont feel as bad as it sounds.