Its been 12 years....

I was 11 when I was abused by my uncle.. at the same time he was my teacher in school when I was in gradeschool... as I look to my past... I start to think whether he have sexually abuse a lot of children same age as I am before...... I heard news about him hanging around with his young male students going to the beach or other place during the summer.... until now, he is still a teacher... I felt that it my fault for not telling someone that I was sexually abuse by my uncle, I should have saved those young children that might have been a victim like me.... but I don't have the guts... Im scared of being rejected by my family and my friends if I tell them about my past...

 

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You're being really hard on yourself. It wasn't your fault it happened, it still isn;t. The fault lies with the abuser. What that monster did, was far more than a physical wound. His actions affect your whole being. Part of winning out over this is healing yourself, FIRST. Maybe counseling, maybe confiding (slowly) in a friend (don't rush). I have found this to be a painful journey, but i'm healthier for it now, after 2+ years of counseling (individual, group & meds at different times) Each persons journey is different. Find what works for you.....