Is there hope for humanity?
Lstincanberra
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The following is an expression of and the sum feelings in me from my experiences this week, just wanted to place it out there so I can receive some feedback. Thanks in advance for your paitence in reading, I have left the narrative unchanged. Cheers.
When my privacy gets invaded, because certain persons have information that they misinterpreted, due in part to myself not hiding, or making an attempt to hide such information, in my search to make sense of why certain things happened to me, and attempting to look into my abuser's mind, such reactions from people who asumed wrongly, should I feel offended that they were not there to protect me, and in fact have added to actions against me, when I am the one to be protected and could have used their help,what should i do to regain my sense of self, as i see it not much seperates those that hurt me a while ago and those that treat me as a non person now, if only they could see the real me, but then, they help no-one and by acting impulsively, destroy my faith in people, what can i do to live in a hurtful world that has forever trampled upon my rights, does humanity exist, for all i see is vigilantes, and as such they show me that it is no suprise that i was hurt, becasue people do not stop and ask the questions i did, indeed people (should i even call them that), can hurt one another without thinking, or informing themselves, all i see is the lack of feeling and humanity, and this saddens me, but does not suprise me, for if anyone was like me and thought with their hearts, what i went through would never have happened. All I see is people pretending to be human, and I feel that my humanity never has diminished, which world can i live in when having sufferred hurt over and over again, and felt pain that i dare not pass to anyone, where can i go to find real people who have felt their soul? I just keep sufferring for the wrong reasons, and I feel that i deserve better, but cannot expect it from any one around me, I can face my god, and know that i have no darkness in me, where shall i go to find another that is as pure? This world seems to lack the warmth that i need, yet i feel glad that i have sufferred such misfortunes against my self, without the ones that cause me such grief, i would never have realised the wonderful soul that i have that keeps on loving despite the negatives thrown at me. I have looked and no glass house i can see that contains me, in a world full of sinners, i absorb all the hate, but without just cause, why and who and where will i find people who will not hurt me? People who do not take liberty with my soul, perhaps I really do not belong, I am on the outside, and the people who judge me, well they judge without reason. Shall i hold out hope for humanity, if I take my life experiences away with me to an angel, I fear that they will decide that Humanity does not desrve to exist, yet I want this experience of life to continue, though humanity does not give many reasons to justify self awareness, perhaps we are all doomed, and we were given a gift that we do not deserve. A part of me was taken away and I never felt like I was part of you people, but that seems not to be my loss, rather a gain, I am an outsider, and different and unique, and maybe never to be like the rest of you, that is perhaps my blessing, however I hope that I find the one saving grace in people otherwise life has been a waste, and the universe stumbled when it thouht of making people. Such a waste, yet life with our self awareness should be such a wonderfull and indescribable feeling, when will people start behaving as people, and express love. I cry to see people hurting others, if you have felt your soul cry, how can you cause other people to hurt, one shoudl die a thousand deaths before even imaganing casuing another soul hurt. i stand in a very unique place and from here, I see that people have no awareness of their being. Keep judging me, for i have not wronged, what they keep doing is condeming themselves, by pointing at me, they show their hurtfull, unaware, misunderstanding, half souled selves, Suprise me people, show me that you have souls, I need to see hope, otherwise all i take away from this life is that people are undeserving, that they have no heart, and that we perhaps should not be, Yet I want to see the goodness that says humanity should continue, that we are not mistakes, that we deserve life, that our expression of the sentient universe is okay, I wait, to see if we are the guardians of life and love, so far i have hope that people should be, so i hope for all, and hope humanity continues, give me reasons that i can make a case for people, while will keep hope eternal, peoples deeds keep dimming that light in my soul, yet i shall not lose my hope, otherwise I am like everyone else, so i will continue hoping that my hope becomes real, that i see the goodness, do i wait alone?
When my privacy gets invaded, because certain persons have information that they misinterpreted, due in part to myself not hiding, or making an attempt to hide such information, in my search to make sense of why certain things happened to me, and attempting to look into my abuser's mind, such reactions from people who asumed wrongly, should I feel offended that they were not there to protect me, and in fact have added to actions against me, when I am the one to be protected and could have used their help,what should i do to regain my sense of self, as i see it not much seperates those that hurt me a while ago and those that treat me as a non person now, if only they could see the real me, but then, they help no-one and by acting impulsively, destroy my faith in people, what can i do to live in a hurtful world that has forever trampled upon my rights, does humanity exist, for all i see is vigilantes, and as such they show me that it is no suprise that i was hurt, becasue people do not stop and ask the questions i did, indeed people (should i even call them that), can hurt one another without thinking, or informing themselves, all i see is the lack of feeling and humanity, and this saddens me, but does not suprise me, for if anyone was like me and thought with their hearts, what i went through would never have happened. All I see is people pretending to be human, and I feel that my humanity never has diminished, which world can i live in when having sufferred hurt over and over again, and felt pain that i dare not pass to anyone, where can i go to find real people who have felt their soul? I just keep sufferring for the wrong reasons, and I feel that i deserve better, but cannot expect it from any one around me, I can face my god, and know that i have no darkness in me, where shall i go to find another that is as pure? This world seems to lack the warmth that i need, yet i feel glad that i have sufferred such misfortunes against my self, without the ones that cause me such grief, i would never have realised the wonderful soul that i have that keeps on loving despite the negatives thrown at me. I have looked and no glass house i can see that contains me, in a world full of sinners, i absorb all the hate, but without just cause, why and who and where will i find people who will not hurt me? People who do not take liberty with my soul, perhaps I really do not belong, I am on the outside, and the people who judge me, well they judge without reason. Shall i hold out hope for humanity, if I take my life experiences away with me to an angel, I fear that they will decide that Humanity does not desrve to exist, yet I want this experience of life to continue, though humanity does not give many reasons to justify self awareness, perhaps we are all doomed, and we were given a gift that we do not deserve. A part of me was taken away and I never felt like I was part of you people, but that seems not to be my loss, rather a gain, I am an outsider, and different and unique, and maybe never to be like the rest of you, that is perhaps my blessing, however I hope that I find the one saving grace in people otherwise life has been a waste, and the universe stumbled when it thouht of making people. Such a waste, yet life with our self awareness should be such a wonderfull and indescribable feeling, when will people start behaving as people, and express love. I cry to see people hurting others, if you have felt your soul cry, how can you cause other people to hurt, one shoudl die a thousand deaths before even imaganing casuing another soul hurt. i stand in a very unique place and from here, I see that people have no awareness of their being. Keep judging me, for i have not wronged, what they keep doing is condeming themselves, by pointing at me, they show their hurtfull, unaware, misunderstanding, half souled selves, Suprise me people, show me that you have souls, I need to see hope, otherwise all i take away from this life is that people are undeserving, that they have no heart, and that we perhaps should not be, Yet I want to see the goodness that says humanity should continue, that we are not mistakes, that we deserve life, that our expression of the sentient universe is okay, I wait, to see if we are the guardians of life and love, so far i have hope that people should be, so i hope for all, and hope humanity continues, give me reasons that i can make a case for people, while will keep hope eternal, peoples deeds keep dimming that light in my soul, yet i shall not lose my hope, otherwise I am like everyone else, so i will continue hoping that my hope becomes real, that i see the goodness, do i wait alone?
