Irony
Grunty1967b
Registrant
Heres a little touch of irony that Im also glad to say I didnt react to and go off the deep end. I just sighed and moved on. I guess I must be getter better in my recovery.
Some of you may know that I decided a few weeks ago to allow myself to do something fun and creative that I never permitted myself to do or certainly didnt feel comfortable doing. I enrolled in a 6 week creative writing class at my local adult college.
I remembered as a child I used to love writing but then pretty much everything shut down for me as I tried to suppress my abuse years. Recent sessions with my therapist have reawakened this creative streak inside of me and I was so looking forward to this new venture.
Last night was my first class and I showed up after much fear and cautiousness. I didnt know what to expect and even to allow myself to do something like this was a big step but I did it.
Now here comes the irony. The course is about short story writing so our lecturer gave us some handouts of some short stories. On the first page was a story about incest with a young child. The lecturer made comment that he had received objections in the past about this story but he thought it was still a good example of a short story and he still feels to include it in every class.
Upon starting to read this story I got triggered and so I stopped. I could have kept on reading to complete the exercise but of course this is sensitive material to me (and many others Id guess) and I didnt feel like putting myself through this so I stopped reading. That was actually a good step for me. Previously I may have just continued reading despite how it might make me feel and then of course afterwards I would feel rotten. I stopped and moved on to the rest of the nights program.
Im in two minds as to whether to complain to the college officials. I know this guy is incredibly insensitive to content like this. How does he know how people will react and then again, he never knows who hell have in his class. It could be an incest survivor like me!
My main point I guess is that I understand I live in a world that cant be expected to walk around on egg shells and never mention things like incest just because I happen to be a survivor. The same ideals could be sought by the ex alcoholic who doesnt want to see another beer commercial. It isnt going to happen and we need to try and deal with these situations as best we can.
Im not trying to minimise the impact of thoughtless acts by people like this lecturer and I may still complain, but Im glad I was able to see it as just one of those things that Im going to come across in life and Im determined to not let that rob me of the learning that I intend to do as part of this course at college.
Some of you may know that I decided a few weeks ago to allow myself to do something fun and creative that I never permitted myself to do or certainly didnt feel comfortable doing. I enrolled in a 6 week creative writing class at my local adult college.
I remembered as a child I used to love writing but then pretty much everything shut down for me as I tried to suppress my abuse years. Recent sessions with my therapist have reawakened this creative streak inside of me and I was so looking forward to this new venture.
Last night was my first class and I showed up after much fear and cautiousness. I didnt know what to expect and even to allow myself to do something like this was a big step but I did it.
Now here comes the irony. The course is about short story writing so our lecturer gave us some handouts of some short stories. On the first page was a story about incest with a young child. The lecturer made comment that he had received objections in the past about this story but he thought it was still a good example of a short story and he still feels to include it in every class.
Upon starting to read this story I got triggered and so I stopped. I could have kept on reading to complete the exercise but of course this is sensitive material to me (and many others Id guess) and I didnt feel like putting myself through this so I stopped reading. That was actually a good step for me. Previously I may have just continued reading despite how it might make me feel and then of course afterwards I would feel rotten. I stopped and moved on to the rest of the nights program.
Im in two minds as to whether to complain to the college officials. I know this guy is incredibly insensitive to content like this. How does he know how people will react and then again, he never knows who hell have in his class. It could be an incest survivor like me!
My main point I guess is that I understand I live in a world that cant be expected to walk around on egg shells and never mention things like incest just because I happen to be a survivor. The same ideals could be sought by the ex alcoholic who doesnt want to see another beer commercial. It isnt going to happen and we need to try and deal with these situations as best we can.
Im not trying to minimise the impact of thoughtless acts by people like this lecturer and I may still complain, but Im glad I was able to see it as just one of those things that Im going to come across in life and Im determined to not let that rob me of the learning that I intend to do as part of this course at college.