introduction
I am new here, and thought I should introduce my self to everyone. My name is Jeff, I am 37 and a survivor of abuse. At six, an older boy took a female playmate and me aside, and showed us a game that he knew. From that moment I was hooked on sex, becoming hypersexual and abusing fellow playmates in my ignorance. Early in the cycle, I of course didnt know it was sex, and it didnt matter whether it was a male or female. I liked the contact and the thrill of doing something naughty.
At ten, I learned much more about sex, and finally realized that the games I had been playing at were sexual. The male on male acts came to an end as I realized that others made fun of that stuff, but I saw no reason to stop having sex with female playmates. I lured one last girl into an adult relationship, and we explored sex with each other as we went from children to teens.
At thirteen we moved away, sending me into a dark depression. I had lost my lover and my best friend in one, and now my dads verbal attacks and constant controlling felt overwhelming. I suspect he was always that way, but I was a happier person before, and never really felt abused. Now, there is little doubt but that he used mental and verbal abuse to control me, and to make me bend to his will.
I turned to fantasy and masturbation as a means of escaping, and soon found myself addicted. After having a cyber affair on my wife, I began seeking help and uncovered much of this for the first time. I had blocked out the early abuse, at least in part. Remembering has brought me a measure of healing as I could at last move past it. I have worked with a therapist and a support group to heal from sexual addiction and the abuse that caused it. I am not perfect by any means, but I have come a long way. I look forward to getting to meet and know everyone.
At ten, I learned much more about sex, and finally realized that the games I had been playing at were sexual. The male on male acts came to an end as I realized that others made fun of that stuff, but I saw no reason to stop having sex with female playmates. I lured one last girl into an adult relationship, and we explored sex with each other as we went from children to teens.
At thirteen we moved away, sending me into a dark depression. I had lost my lover and my best friend in one, and now my dads verbal attacks and constant controlling felt overwhelming. I suspect he was always that way, but I was a happier person before, and never really felt abused. Now, there is little doubt but that he used mental and verbal abuse to control me, and to make me bend to his will.
I turned to fantasy and masturbation as a means of escaping, and soon found myself addicted. After having a cyber affair on my wife, I began seeking help and uncovered much of this for the first time. I had blocked out the early abuse, at least in part. Remembering has brought me a measure of healing as I could at last move past it. I have worked with a therapist and a support group to heal from sexual addiction and the abuse that caused it. I am not perfect by any means, but I have come a long way. I look forward to getting to meet and know everyone.