Introduction / Inspiration

[Gary - CDN]

I am Gary-CDN and I just thought I would introduce myself and hopefully provide some inspiration to those of you who are starting or are in the middle of your journey. I have just turned 47 years old, have a longtime girlfriend, and was abused as a child. This was hidden and neatly tucked away for years until last October when I let out a scream for help. (Extreme stress is a marvelous trigger). My memory is muddled, but those few fragmented scenes suddenly became clear. I was abused by both a babysitter and family friend. I soon began to unravel both mentally and emotionally. As soon as possible I sought help and have been in counseling since. It is only in the last little while that I have realized a viscious cycle has been broken and I am no longer ruled by the beast. He does not cloud my vision any more. I am back in control.

As for the journey, it has been ugly but I have trudged on. At it's low points I remember falling into the depths of despair and hopelessness within hours of an uplifting session with my counselor. Whatever happens guys don't quit. Don't let the bastard win. You owe it to yourselves.

As for myself, I still have work to do. The first 46 years of my life consists of muddled memories. For years I feel I have gone through life as 2 people. It looks like the good one has survived.

Keep a good thought Gentlemen....

 

[New to this]

Thanks for the inspiration. Thats why we come to this site. Don't stop with an introduction though. Read the new post and apply some inspiration.
Devon

 

[Lloydy]

welcome to all the new guys, we've had a sudden rush recently.
It's sad we need to be here at all, but this is as good a place as any to be if you're a survivor.

There's so much help here, mainly by proving that we are not alone and offering support to each other.

Lloydy