Introduction - 10 Facts
1. I'm not really sure when the abuse started - i remember a sexual experience when I was 4 - I "think" it was by a female baby sitter
2. My brother (7 years older) started the abuse when I was 5 or 6 in a bed during a family trip, (I idolized my brother) this began abuse with trips to the attic and a hidden secret we had.
3. A neighborhood kid (4 years older) molested me and his brother several times. I heard this kid (the abuser) is homeless, in and out of psychiatric hospitals, and confessed to a friend that he was abused by another neighborhood kid
4. My younger brother (4 boys, I was third) struggled with anxiety and depression, his sexuality, and ultimately committed suicide. I know he witnessed my abuse. Not sure he was abused.
5. My 2nd oldest brother is an alcoholic, and sex addict
6. The hardest part for me was that I was a willing participant, i wasn't held down and raped. I thought this was a secret we shared.
7. I became very sexually aggressive with both boys and girls at a very early age.
8. I struggle with anxiety, depression, and OCD (on medication that helps)
9. I REALLY struggle with my sexuality. Not sure what I am, gay, straight, bi-sexual. Married to a woman for 31 years.
10. I haven't confronted my brother - he's still in my life. I tolerate him (we are not close) for my 93 year old mother.
11. I'm a mess
2. My brother (7 years older) started the abuse when I was 5 or 6 in a bed during a family trip, (I idolized my brother) this began abuse with trips to the attic and a hidden secret we had.
3. A neighborhood kid (4 years older) molested me and his brother several times. I heard this kid (the abuser) is homeless, in and out of psychiatric hospitals, and confessed to a friend that he was abused by another neighborhood kid
4. My younger brother (4 boys, I was third) struggled with anxiety and depression, his sexuality, and ultimately committed suicide. I know he witnessed my abuse. Not sure he was abused.
5. My 2nd oldest brother is an alcoholic, and sex addict
6. The hardest part for me was that I was a willing participant, i wasn't held down and raped. I thought this was a secret we shared.
7. I became very sexually aggressive with both boys and girls at a very early age.
8. I struggle with anxiety, depression, and OCD (on medication that helps)
9. I REALLY struggle with my sexuality. Not sure what I am, gay, straight, bi-sexual. Married to a woman for 31 years.
10. I haven't confronted my brother - he's still in my life. I tolerate him (we are not close) for my 93 year old mother.
11. I'm a mess