Introducing myself (briefly)

Introducing myself (briefly)
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AshSurvived

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My name is Ash and I was molested by my female cousin up till the age of 8. She would rape me and do a whole bunch of things from her extensive repetoir including threats and detailed descriptions of castration.

Being poor and fundamentalist I tried everything but drugs and therapy to cope in life, but now at 28, as an atheist and a totally isolated perverted man who hates himself, who actually has no self left to hate as I'm sure you'll all understand; I am seeking proper help.

I'm reaching out. tomorrow I start therapy at a local CASA (Centre for Adult Sexual Assault) with a dedicated male therapist. I have some of my anxiety under control with homeopathic medicine (Nervatona: works better than real drugs) and I've decided to seek help and stop going it alone.

Till now my community has been fetish boards dealing with extreme self hate and self harm fantasies (female domination broadly speaking). Slowly, as I begin to cry and let go that stuff is waning. But still everyday in my mind I am raped and I seek reassurance in hate and pain.

My story is similar to that of Antwone Fisher, which I reccomend to you all...with a little Mysterious Skin thrown in (blackouts, extreme blood noses).

I have spared you details, cos you all know the drill and I don't want to hurt anyone here, suffice to say I would like to talk to others who have been abused by women, I need the support.

Thanks for listening.

Ash.
 
Ash - Welcome to the Site!! I'm sorry for the years you suffered and struggled with the traumas left you following your abuse! For years (even decades) many survivors try to go it alone only to finally get honest and seek help!! I'm glad you are starting your journey in therapy. Let us know how it goes for you! Please keep posting, asking questions and reaching out! This is a great place to be understood!!

Howard

PS: I have seen Antoine Fisher (powerful! and opens alot emotionally!). Also, my perps were both male and female, family & strangers,etc.).
 
Ash,

Welcome to our brotherhood. So sorry for the reason you sought us out, but glad you found us. Also am glad to hear you're already starting Therapy. Hope you get a good "T" who is experienced in sexual abuse issues. It's important to understanding our special issues.

Hang around here, post, read, interact in the chatroom, etc. It's a journey you're on and you're now traveling shoulder to shoulder with friends.

Lots of love,

John
 
Welcome to MS.

I am glad you decided to come to MS, the guys here are great and I am sure you will find comfort and healing here.

Your journey is just begining, take it in stride and don't get in a hurry with therapy.

Glad to have you,
 
Hi Ash,

Welcome to Male Survivor! I hope your first therapy session went well. Making that first post is a big step! I'm looking forward to hearing more from you as you find your way down this, sometimes bumpy, road to recovery! I'm glad you are here!

Recovery is Possible!

Brian
 
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