@ender99, Hello.
this sounds very familiar, I could say exactly the same thing. I had female friends, indeed a lot of female friends at university and at other places, yet nothing seemed to evolve. Contemplating making the first move always made me feel like an abuser.
I suspect now some at least of those female friends were probably interested in things going further, I also suspect that it wasn't my lack of ability to make the first move that got in the way, but a combination of my lack of ability to pick up signals, and said friends realising that I had major issues with intimacy, would recoil at touch etc.
This finally culminated in me having a breakdown in 2007 when I was 25, after I tried to take a girl's hand and things went no where, and suddenly bang! there I was, back in my abuse as a teenager, and I realised that no, I was not quite as over what had happened as I thought.
There then followed years of recovery, isolation, attempts to find therapy which mostly failed and all in all a lot of major problems.
then in 2014, something very weird happened, I met a girl on a mailing list discussing books, we started exchanging emails as friends, emails became phone calls, and we eventually met at an international music school in 2015.
the attraction was massive on my part, but I was convinced that she could not possibly be interested, indeed I spent a long while literally praying that I wouldn't have the same experience again. The attraction grew progressively worse as we exchanged more phone calls.
finally, things came out (mostly by me blurting things out like an idiot), and shock horror, she felt the same way!
one love triangle, three very fraught months, and a truly amazing week in November of 15 later, and we're living together, by July of 16, one year to the day after we admitted the way we felt, we're married.
We're still married and intend to continue being married as long as we both live.
she's my best friend, life partner and has given me more than I can possibly explain.
I really wish there was a formula I could give for saying "do this and this and this" for things to work.
I can say, yes, we were very much friends originally, indeed I don't personally agree with the hole "friend zone" business, since most successful couples I know were indeed friends first, but how to get from friends to something else is very difficult, especially because yes, it is still expected for the man to pick up mysterious signals most of the time.
Maybe it was just that I got lucky in meeting someone who'd already been married and divorced and knew what she wanted.
I personally think though, a major factor was the recovery I'd already done. I was still genophobic (afraid of sex), still had major issues with depression, trust and powerlessness, however, I myself perhaps didn't realise how much of a different place I was in in 2015 at 33, to where I'd been in 2007 at 25.
So, my personal advice would be to continue making friends with girls, and just work on abuse recovery, learn yourself, learn what problems you have and be comfortable, perhaps even talk this over with a female friend if needed, or a therapist if you have found a decent one.
I really wish I could give more specific advice, but I can say, if it worked out for me, it can work out for anyone.
Luke.