internet story (TW/Trigger warning)

internet story (TW/Trigger warning)

R0b25

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Hey all,

I Wanted to share some stuff that’s been on my mind. The other day I watched videos I posted of myself 10 years ago on Youtube as a minor. The videos are embarrassing, sexual, and involve kinks. One video involves me showing off my body in underwear. I have a visible bulge, i am moaning, showing off my stomach, etc. it is sickening how I have 12,000 views, 100 ish likes… subscribers i have like 100. The second video is the same concept but I am engaging in mild S&m. I have comments from sickos giving me ideas how to cause more pain to myself. I’m in therapy now. I reported the videos finally! I’ve been exploited on the internet for a very long time since a teenager. I’ve shown myself off to grown men. Guys my age at the time etc. i’ve been blackmailed sexually as an adult. i fit under the category of CSEM now… advice?
 
Ahhh. I dont know the emails or passwords. I had to ask youtube to do it.
Ok that makes sense. It's a shame that situation occurred. I expect many of the young people posting somewhat explicit stuff will also wind up being upset by it later on. And yeah, the men who egged you on were horrible. I was exploited in child porn films, starting at 12 years old. I know the kind of guys who got off on that stuff. But it;s also sad that you wind up feeling ashamed of your own body. In a perfect world you could just look at the videos and laugh at silly childish behaviour, if you understand what I mean.
 
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