In the roots

[Tryingtolive]

I feel as though Iam trapped
In the roots I'm saddened.
Torn down and stripped of my happiness.
In the roots I'm curious.
Wondering what had happened.
In the roots I'm scared.
Feeling outa control.
In my roots I was molded by what had happen.
My roots is my mental well being.
My roots were tampered with at a very young age.
I was never really able to grow.
Mature into the person I'd like to be.
In my roots I wish I could change.
Plant something new.
But so afraid of change.
So comfortable of the pain.
Loneliness and anger, It grew on me.
Other things Tempting me.
Somehow I keep my cool.
Realizing I've developed new roots.
A seed I've dropped for myself.
A new start.
Waiting for me to grow.
The progress.
The setbacks.
All I know.
None of this I show.
In the roots
Im learning
To let go.
Plenty of new seeds.
Waiting to grow.
Same old roots.
Keep me chained down.
Causing the anxiety.
Just wanting a fresh start.
Tired of going with the flow.

 

[tommyb]

(tryingtolive)

 

[Elad1]

TTL,

The narrative of the root gave you a beautiful voice. So much of what you wrote spoke to me and helped me in my journey to see a sliver of hope through the ugly. I hope you gain peace and contentment with your pain.