In memory, another year

[MrDon]

Last weekend marked the 2nd year since I lost my mom in a car accident. It has been a rather rough time trying to get through the holidays and this. A year ago I was so busy in school that I had very little time to think about it. This year, was different and almost like it was making up for both years. I was very depressed through the weekend but managed to go spend time with her in the park that I go to. It did help because I do feel her with me but it is also very painful because I miss her so much.

At least now I feel like I can begin to breathe again in life and the stress load is a little lighter.

The more I continue in life the more I realize just how much of her is in me. That's a good thing but many things do remind me of her and are a daily part of me.

Don

 

[RICK57]

Don - try and remember the good times and things you may have laughed about together. You'll find that you can laugh about them again eventually. I've lost both parents along with other relatives friends over the years but try to remember them with a smile now. My Dad actually died as a result of Alzeimers & I always remember the day he decided to lean back as far as he could on a packed moving escalator. I was walking around on the floor that he was leaving (shopping centre) & heard a commotion, only to look up & see my Mother, Sister & several other people trying to get him to stand up straight on the escalator - He was laughing his back off without a care in the world. I didn't know what to think at the time, but the memory always makes me laugh now (and he'll love that if he knows).

Keep your chin up... Rik

 

[crisispoint]

Don,

Five years ago on Jan. 11, my Mom lost her battle with cancer. It was long and hard for her, and while I've been forced to reevaluate her as a parent and a human being, I know I would never have survived my childhood without her.

I miss her terribly, and I wish I had the real opportunity to talk things over with her, but there is also so much good that I carry around with me because of what she has given me. She taught me to read at three, she provided so much love, and she was a strong person who accepted hardships with a stunning grace.

I talk to her every day, and I do get a response (no, it's not voices and I don't need (more) medication! ). Every time I get down, and remember the night she died (a hard night, because I was with her at the end), I also recall her strength and character (she was a salty lady with a wicked sense of humor), which brings a smile to my face.

Your Mom also watches down on you and over you. Whenever you feel sad at her passing, grieve, but remember her quality moments as well. They're what we have when people leave and it's what we'll leave our loved ones when we go. Synchronicity, you see?

Peace and love,

Scot

 

[MrDon]

Rick,
I don't think I'm to the laughing part yet, but thanks for letting me know that I can get there. I am remembering the good times and often that is followed by the pain of losing her. I just appreciate that you let me know, it does continue to get better.

Scot,
I so agree with you that my mom is always with me and watching down over me. Of course it isn't the same, but it is all I have now. I really see this as I discover more and more of my talents and realize just how much they are a reflection of my mom. She gave me so much.