In case you're wondering where I've been...

[PAS]

Hey all.. just a quick update on my life.. for those of you who knew that I married my fiance on Sept 25...

I've been "sick as a dog" with fatigue and morning sickness pretty much since October 10..

Yep we're having a baby in June! The first trimester is taking a lot out of me mental-energy wise and so I just can't be on this board too often. I can barely be at work these days let alone anything else!

Anyhow we're getting a lot of T help and things seem to be really improving - still some issues but feeling more hopeful than I've ever felt about things.

Later all!

P

 

[MikeNY]

I love hearing good news. Sorry that you are so sick because of it. Thak you for sharing your wonderful news. Congratulations!!!!!!!
Make sure that you take care of yourself.

 

[outis]

Congratulations, PAS! This is great news. I know you and your husband will be great parents.

Thanks for keeping us up to date.

Joe

 

[Lloydy]

PAS
That's wonderful news, it's brightened up my crappy day no end

Dave

 

[SAR]

PAS, I am glad it's all coming together for you two...

Ah the first trimester, a time of queasiness and blurry little ultrasounds that you will cherish forever. Keep us posted when you can.

SAR

 

[PAS]

We had our first little blurry ultrasound last week.. the tiny little thing resembled a kidney bean with a little heart beating... embryonic hearts are so strange its like they pop right out of the embryo and beat outside in the womb.. weird! We both cried when we saw the heart beating.. I guess thats a good sign!! It was SO amazing to see that there's something ALIVE there already!!

Not feeling so bad since yesterday noon.. maybe the nausea is on its way out!! Here's hoping!!!
Finding life relaly hard to "live" right now being so tired, so hormonally-insane and so foggy in the brain. So unmotivated to work or do ANYTHING. I just dont give a crap about anything except laying in bed, sleeping, and waking up in June.. For the first time since our honeymoon, last night I actually wanted to eat a "normal meal and it acutally went down rather well.

I wish I could just hit fast forward and the baby would be HERE already! P/g is so scary.. so many things to worry about.. trying hard not to imagine the worst but some days its hard.

Anyhow.. so far so good I guess! Am thinking that this baby is really a "gift" from God so hoping that we'll be blessed with something lovely and healthy.. I have a STRONG hunch its going to be a boy.. I think my H needs an experience where he has to go and still work out some issues in his past and raising a boy will be a way for him to have to face and confront all his unresolved issues about the SA, his parents, fears about being unsafe in the world, etc. I have discussed this with him and he's FULLY aware that this is going to be a challenge for him but he seems pretty happy and enthused to face those challenges. He's being pretty realistic and honest about his feelings - definitely a good sign!!!!!!! I have a good gut feeling about his attitude and his enthusiasm about this baby!

P

 

[reality2k4]

Look after yourself, hope the little one brings so much joy into your life.

It must be hard having babies, or so the women tell me. Guess I have to believe that.

A little miracle of life, I am so pleased for you both,

Love,

ste

 

[theo]

pas,
of course, the gift of life is always that, a gift lol. i wish i was blessed with this gift, but for now, that is not possible. that is okay because for times like this, as well as those when i see this gift make it all the more precious for me. aside from the son i lost before, my neices and nephews have been the vicarious gift, but nonetheless precious to me. a child is a gift unto itself, regardless of the situation. to have this gift within the love you share with your husband is something else. i cherish the celebration of the days my neices and nephews came into being. someday, perhaps, i will hold my own child. pas, no words can convey this gift, just cherish.