in awe

[caointeoir]

while i'm still hesitant on what to say on myself, i am reading through posts and answers here totally in awe of the kind of support going on.

i find myself marveling at how kind and thoughtful and respectful people are with each other, and at how much time they take to help each other. to think about the issues of others and freely share so much of themselves.

it's really an amazing place to be. i keep thinking i would like to actually be part of this and useful, but i still can't really help feeling a little out of place. but i guess that's just me.

anyway i just wanted to say that i guess. not overly constructive, i know. sort of my back door approach at being a part of it

 

[WalkingSouth]

caointeoir,

I have to say, this place had the same affect on me when I first fell down the rabbit hole. It still does although I suppose some of the "wonder" has worn off.

There are countless volunteer hours spent behind the scenes by the mods and others that enable the good things that happen here, but this place is, after all, what we as participants make it to be.

Please don't feel out of place. I know you weren't abuse as a child, but abused you were. It's still got to hurt like hell, and there are still issue you have to face that are similar to those the rest of us are dealing with. You are welcome here, Friend, part of the brotherhood.

Lots of love,

John

 

[roadrunner]

caointeoir,

I remember your story and certainly you are not out of place here. Just find the best way for you to benefit from what is on offer here and everyone will respect that.

Much love,
Larry

 

[Lloydy]

caointeoir

Welcome, I love your sig' line poem. That's something to live by!

Dave

 

[caointeoir]

thank you guys for the replies and the encouragement. much appreciated. i'm finding my way i'm sure.

Originally posted by Lloydy:
I love your sig' line poem. That's something to live by!

it's a song - 'pardon me' by incubus. no, that's definitely not a name-tells-the-story-band. they're one of the most amazing acts i know. utterly positive, very thoughtful. have helped me a lot throughout all my life. i don't know how much you're into rock music, but they're definitely worth a shot.

 

[jesse7]

Caointeoir,

I'm also amazed by this forum and how everyone supports each other. This sort of miracle happens because we all carry a very deep wound and so we are able to discuss the things that really matter. Most people that have never been so wounded are too busy pursuing other things like money, work, and achievements.

Taken by their relative importance, it's easy to see that some things simply have a higher priority than others. Spirituality, love, and survival are very high while things like money and careers are at the low end. A lot of victims have hit rock bottom in life so there's really no where else to go but up.

As a child, I experienced in a way what many have called the mid-life crisis. You know that time period when a person becomes old and starts to think of the meaning of life, the impermanence of things, and death itself. These things a child should not have to deal with. At an age when other kids are playing with their toys I was struggling to find answers to these problems and struggling to survive.

So you see there's some people here who have completely transcended their wound and have managed to transmute their pain into love. They are a source of wisdom and inspiration for all of us.

Jesse

 

[John Oarc]

I am in agreement, I find this place and the people here very important to my life. I am hoping to be able to attend one of the retreats so I can meet other survivors. I think that would be most important to me one day.