I'll try this
I had a very hard day today. I was at my in-laws' house with safe relatives, and I took a shower since my wife and I had spent the night.
I was terrified in the shower. It was kind of dark, and I felt in danger, like I was in the abusive days. I was in a quiet alarm for the next hour or so, and I let my wife know about it, just because I know she cares about me.
But I am home now, and the feelings linger. I am on the computer in our den because her new video game is in here, and I am not comfortable in the bedroom alone.
This is new. I feel embarrassed because I feel both relieved that these feelings are coming, and scared because they are here. I want them to come out, but they're terrifying. I didn't want to write here. There are so many people here. I asked my wife what might be best in asking for help as I only have one male survivor's email address. And thus the reason for my subject line.
Alfred
I was terrified in the shower. It was kind of dark, and I felt in danger, like I was in the abusive days. I was in a quiet alarm for the next hour or so, and I let my wife know about it, just because I know she cares about me.
But I am home now, and the feelings linger. I am on the computer in our den because her new video game is in here, and I am not comfortable in the bedroom alone.
This is new. I feel embarrassed because I feel both relieved that these feelings are coming, and scared because they are here. I want them to come out, but they're terrifying. I didn't want to write here. There are so many people here. I asked my wife what might be best in asking for help as I only have one male survivor's email address. And thus the reason for my subject line.
Alfred