If you need to reach out to the Veteran's Suicide Hotline. Call 1-800-273-8255 and press 1. Or text to 838255. You may also chat online at https://www.veteranscrisisline.net/get-help/chat They have trained professionals ready to help all active duty/veterans in a crisis situation. I availed my self to it at one time. It can be a lifesaver. You served your country. Now let your country serve you.