Iam a hypocrite

[Tryingtolive]

I indulge in drinks of liquor.
To block the the memories.
To act I’m okay.
Tomorrow I waste a day sobering up.
In the moment everything is fine.
But certain actions Do have consequence.
Iam drunk.
Another night I’ve let slip away.
Into the facade.
It’s hard to say “no” to good time.
To numb the anxiety to make it worse the next day.
I’m sorry

 

[LoneWolfX]

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[Older1]

We all need our escapes, our oasis island, our solitude, our treehouse, to silence the world around us. We need time to soothe our bruises from our daily life.
I have many escapes; some good; some not good.
Some of my "good" escapes are going to a movie, watching TV, cooking up a new recipe, going for a walk to look at the world, having a nap to calm down, allowing myself a good cry, hiding and isolating (but just for a little while), etc.
Yes, I have bad escapes too. Enough said ;-)
Good escapes help me feel better.... successful..... positive.
Good luck with your escapes today.

 

[Echoes]

I can understand that. We are all hypocrites in a way, I think. I've never been a drinker, my stepfather was one, but we all indulge in something when our coping methods aren't working. I won't say what I do because it's not something that should be done, but I want you to know you're not alone.

 

[Pollux]

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[genedebs]

Dear Tryingtolive,

I was a black out drinker for 27 years. I have been sober 26 years. My therapists indicate that drinking like I do, makes therapy rarely effective.

I go to a psychiatrist for help with my anxiety and depression. Is there any difference between pills and alcohol? Aparentlly

As we say in AA, some of us are sicker than others, I have gone over with my therapist methods I use to calm down and examinations of delay reacting to stressors, or"triggers."

I can't say what is successful, only that I can stop crying, and get to sleep.

 

[Napoleon]

My drug of choice was always weed. I started using when my panic attacks started to get extremely bad at the beginning of a breakup with a girl I was engaged to. I have always seen it as a medication, not a drug.

My experiences are now supported by many VETS who swear, in it'a ability not only to induce memory problems relieving the stress of flashbacks, but induce fast acting temporary eurphoia to deal with flashbacks, panic attacks etc. However I am judged far more than a VET with PTSD, I am viewed as a druggie. I am currently not using even though my symptoms are sever... but people still judge due to the past.