I would like to share my testimony of faith with those who want to read it
Trigger warning winded raw straight from the heart religious views
My statement of faith
My journey Of Faith actually started on a cold January day (1/18/2020) in 2020 when I saw someone who triggered what I can only describe as a major post traumatic stress episode I was shaking and crying and I kept repeating to myself he’s dead surely he’s dead this guy looked so much like a man who accosted me as a child I would wind up going home and the episode only worsened I remember I started to pray I said lord I don’t know what is going on or why I am reacting this way but I need help I can’t take this on my own this is too much and wile I was praying and crying so much I was blinded I started typing on my phone in documents I could not even see what I was typing at all for the tears and after I finished typing wile in the middle of a prayer a since of calm came over me It felt as if god was hugging me and weeping with me
I would calm down from the episode in a few hours time it was after i calmed down that I looked at what I had blindly typed and realized I needed to have Jesus as my lord and savior so I asked him to move into my heart and later that morning i looked and I found the song I call bended knees on the phone screen it was at this moment I realized That this Jesus Person Was More then a simple human and I knew I had to place my faith in him and I chose To surrender my life in hole to him and I have been growing spiritually since
I am sadly unable to share the full scope of what God Has Done For Me because it would lbe triggering to those like me which is why I prayed asking God To Give Me A Gift That Would Allow me to articulate just what God Has Done For Me in a way that doesn’t deny the power of it and at age 35 I started to write spoken word and music the music came first and the spoken word was second but I believe that it was a gift of God As I Myself like Moses Am Far From Perfect and So Flawed that I feel completely unworthy of being even so much as considered for salvation but the beautiful thing is that salvation is a free gift and we do not deserve it but God Will Freely Give It to all who ask and repent of their sins and place their faith in Jesus Christ
I am now attending church at a sot and despite that I am focused on drawing closer to the I can’t help but laugh at satan when I think about how a place He meant for deep personal hurt and trauma has become a place of healing and hope to the world i know if I was not a Christian I would not be here today
I mainly want people to look at me and see that God is the only reason why I can return to a sight of deep hurt and trauma And that I do not deserve a nano ounce of credit for how I am healing I wanna close with a poem I Wrote
LMy story
I suffered great loss till I turned to the cross
I asked Jesus in he made a end to my sin
When I gave Christ My Heart He gave me a fresh start
They say i should hate I won’t take their bait
I choose to forgive because I want to truly live
Christ’s Love so vast let’s me outlast
When I’m at the end of my rope in Christ I hope
My statement of faith
My journey Of Faith actually started on a cold January day (1/18/2020) in 2020 when I saw someone who triggered what I can only describe as a major post traumatic stress episode I was shaking and crying and I kept repeating to myself he’s dead surely he’s dead this guy looked so much like a man who accosted me as a child I would wind up going home and the episode only worsened I remember I started to pray I said lord I don’t know what is going on or why I am reacting this way but I need help I can’t take this on my own this is too much and wile I was praying and crying so much I was blinded I started typing on my phone in documents I could not even see what I was typing at all for the tears and after I finished typing wile in the middle of a prayer a since of calm came over me It felt as if god was hugging me and weeping with me
I would calm down from the episode in a few hours time it was after i calmed down that I looked at what I had blindly typed and realized I needed to have Jesus as my lord and savior so I asked him to move into my heart and later that morning i looked and I found the song I call bended knees on the phone screen it was at this moment I realized That this Jesus Person Was More then a simple human and I knew I had to place my faith in him and I chose To surrender my life in hole to him and I have been growing spiritually since
I am sadly unable to share the full scope of what God Has Done For Me because it would lbe triggering to those like me which is why I prayed asking God To Give Me A Gift That Would Allow me to articulate just what God Has Done For Me in a way that doesn’t deny the power of it and at age 35 I started to write spoken word and music the music came first and the spoken word was second but I believe that it was a gift of God As I Myself like Moses Am Far From Perfect and So Flawed that I feel completely unworthy of being even so much as considered for salvation but the beautiful thing is that salvation is a free gift and we do not deserve it but God Will Freely Give It to all who ask and repent of their sins and place their faith in Jesus Christ
I am now attending church at a sot and despite that I am focused on drawing closer to the I can’t help but laugh at satan when I think about how a place He meant for deep personal hurt and trauma has become a place of healing and hope to the world i know if I was not a Christian I would not be here today
I mainly want people to look at me and see that God is the only reason why I can return to a sight of deep hurt and trauma And that I do not deserve a nano ounce of credit for how I am healing I wanna close with a poem I Wrote
LMy story
I suffered great loss till I turned to the cross
I asked Jesus in he made a end to my sin
When I gave Christ My Heart He gave me a fresh start
They say i should hate I won’t take their bait
I choose to forgive because I want to truly live
Christ’s Love so vast let’s me outlast
When I’m at the end of my rope in Christ I hope