I wish I could confront him.

[crisispoint]

I made a mistake and got drunk last night. The good parts are 1. I'll NEVER use alcohol for a solution to the emotions again, because they brought back almost all the flashbacks at once (and very vividly too!) and 2. I feel validated. The abuse was real. I believe it now, although there are details that will be forever denied me.

Since I was abused/raped in the 70s, I never knew the full name of the person who raped me. I only know his last name (Mr. Price - he worked as a counselor for the Holliston, MA, school system). It's still early for me in the process, but now I really want to confront him. Not to hurt him (although I have done that many times in my mind since the roller coaster ride started!), but to ask him is it real and why he did it to me.

I know that Leosha had the chance to do that, (Kudos again, my friend!), but is it a good thing? Also, anyone from MA who knows this guy, can they say if he hurt them?

Thanks for all the support, and peace to all who comes here.

I love you all,

Scot

 

[Leosha]

Crisispoint,

I am still not so much 'here' right now, but had to respond to you. Please do not build your hopes on confrontation. Please work more on healing yourself, FOR yourself, and not be anticipating such a thing. Because I learn this last two weeks, confronting is not the cure, or the answer of everything. The day after I confronted my old coach, I made a mistake and allowed him to hurt me again. This week, since being home, I have been very depressed, suicidal, and having more flashbacks and bad memories then even before. Please work more on your healing first, make sure that you are at a point of strength before considering a confrontation, and THEN, try hard to not have to do it alone. You need support to help you through it, I know that now. I should have waited, and just avoided him. But I felt I had no choice, and I was wrong, I did. I do not know if you read my posts since confronting him, but they are all posts of struggle. Yes, it was a good thing within itself. But it has effected me bad also, and I am still trying to come back of it. Please be careful, and be safe.

leosha

 

[Bill_1965]

Scot,

Confrontation is a big step that needs to be well thought out. It can provide the big results
that you seek, but it also contains big risk as well. I hope you take time to read this article on confrontation and writing confrontation letter before acting. Disclosure and Confrontation: Considerations for Survivors There are many good articles and resources on the MS home page.

There is an old saying that I learned years ago,

You cannot drown sorrow, its the best swimmer there is.

As you have found out last night.

I have found that there are things to be learned in the flashbacks, besides they are no fun. And it seems you have found the same thing. You came out realizing your SA was real.

I wish you good fortune on your healing journey,
Bill

 

[Muldoon]

Scot The teacher that abused me in 1964 continued his evil until 1971 when he took his own life. I went back in Dec of last year and tried to get the school board to look into the way this was handaled in 1971 but they hid from it.

I only know his last name (Mr. Price - he worked as a counselor for the Holliston, MA, school system)

I would talk with the superentdent of the school system he should be able to give you the low down on this evil guy. Maybe they had other reports about him ,who knows.
Best of luck in your healing and in your dealing with the Holliston, MA, school system. Do confront him through the school system thats who he worked for. Muldoon