I will make something Happen

[markgreyblue]

I dunn - I was gonna indulge in a thought

kind of journal log telling you my thoughts -

but I think

really I at this time - I will say - instead -

heads up

I am here - I have very hard times ahead -

I am not happy,
scared - emotionally and financially drained -

I wanted this dream - but the price aka the kicker is really really high - for the way I

have ventured to make this journey -

I was unknowing and untrained - I did well enough

and got very far - but right now

I will not set myself up for more torment -

I am leaving -

Sad - well perhaps - I am crying my eyes out -

for visions of being on the street!

or wherever -

But I will fight and get my life back -

What does it profit a man if he looses his soul?

What does it profit a man if he has no Profit!!!

Fuck everything -

I will be ok -

I'll sell the house - get a studio apartment again

and just have a shit load of money in the bank -

ttyl

Mark

 

[Liam]

Mark - whats the long term silution you came up with? I am sure you are going to be fine. Sounds like you are a bit under the weather. Fill us in on what is going on - Ok

 

[markgreyblue]

a man at the YMCA set me up for a job -
here in TO - he said he was only interested in helping me -

but he turned to be ill -
and the would be boss never called me again-

he is a bad guy - and turns out to be a muslim -

 

[markgreyblue]

sorry that last part not the issue -

the issue was he did all this crap on purpose -

 

[markgreyblue]

and now i gotta leave TO

no job - too late to get one -

very tired stressed etc...