I was raped (trigger warning)

I was raped (trigger warning)
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desvelar

Registrant
I am a male. When I was 13 I was raped by my 18 year old babysitter i a know sixteen. I feel like I always need to be touched by girls that I know and trust I always havve to be around them and when I am not I am depressed.
her is how it happend I was left the person(not my parents) that left said the babysitter would be coming over and when she did she was drunk and pissed off she took off her close then mine then she some how arrowsed my penis then shoved her self on top of it while holding me down she said If no one would have sex with her then she would whave sex with me she was yes I am finally not a virgin and when she was doen she somehow convinced me to be quit abpout it Ineed some help on how to recover I have treid talking to my parents but they close up any time I talk about something personal and emotional. I dont kids at school hace been closing me out of ther groups and well I dont know I have been thinking about ending it but I recently stopped that thanks to summer and conincing myself it will not solve anything. I dont know could someone sendme some help on how to forget or recover.It pains me to talk about this so plz respond something.


edited to add trigger warning
 
Hi Desvelar,
recovery is long and hard process.
Good thing is that you found this site. Here you can find a lot of information how to deal with CSA (Child Sexual Abuse).
It would be good for you to first explore this site in detail, to see what other people are writing, who is who and to check some of the professional reading that could be found here.

You must be careful because you are very young; do not give your personal information to anyone. Also maybe it would be good to contact some of the moderators and ask them for advices and security tips.

PS. Abuse can happen to anyone, for example I was abused by one older boy. I still have scars many years after and I am not comfortable to speak about it to other people. The secretes of successful recovery are in your will and determination to success and overcome all obstacles that are bothering you. I am wishing to you good luck on this hard path.

Ivo
 
Desvelar put it right. For your protection here I suggest that you contact a mod for assistance and guidance.

I am truly sorry for what has happened to you
 
I know How to protect my security(Im a grey hat hacker https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grey_hat ;) ) I just need help with my past :(
 
Desvelar I am not worried about your ability to look after yourself. It is just that it is a policy for teenagers to hook up with a MOD. Hope you do not take offence to that.
 
Desvelar,
Mike Church (see posts above) is great moderator and you can talk to him.

I am sure that his advices would help you. There are few therapists on this site also, in case for a need Mike could connect you to them for more in depth approach to your questions and issues.

Good luck,
Ivo
 
I regret that happens with you. The majority of abusing to me, sexual way, had my mother. Only once was other person. It is true, yes, those women offend by boys. I very much regret, that happen with you, and I know, it is difficult to recover from this. I shall wish you well-being to be here. I hope, that you will safely recover.

VN
 
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