i think i am starting to deal with my self - in a braver way

[markgreyblue]

- i met a total stranger today -

we seemed to connect at lunch -

i just said hi

he was sitting alone -

he sort of glanced over - looked lonely and a safe person

so i said hi

we started chatting i said that i was doing housework with a handy man and was just running home real quick -

but we had a nice long talk through our joint lunch

and it opened me to think more of my ideas

as i had conveyed mine to him

without - being - taking up all the room -

i mean -

anyway - a superb dialogue rather than - me feeling - i had just been an obnoxious soapbox fart -

so we talked - and i rushed home -

and on the same topic

i started to think how moderation is so much a key

if there were a religion to ascribe to sometimes -

i almost feel it woudl be a cross between christianity and buddhism?

i dunno - but i mustered the bravery enough to think of it and propose it here -

?

anyways -

i feel lots of agression and anger in life -

it is what drives me forward -

but perhaps a buddhist meditation

middle way - can help me with that?

dunno -- well

peace all -

i hope life's solutions - come to you for your day.

 

[markgreyblue]

it's weird too

I just remembered - as I grew up

I remembered getting teased or

feelings hurt for behaving - differently -

so I learned to control myself -

I remember at one time - teasing someone

also - but like in the way I was teased -
I saw their reaction

and thought - 'what am I doing?"

it wasn't ok -

so in a sense

it's all coming plain to me -

truly - I am strong - and can muster strength when needed -

I think moderation is key -

- good structure - not bad structure -- right?!

anyway - ttyl

 

[markgreyblue]

dunno guess - you're not responsible for the whole wide world -

but it's good to be in a conversation - relationship

with god ..

mg b

 

[markgreyblue]

i feel great!

 

[roadrunner]

Mark,

I think you're basically thinking about the key to successful relationships: adopting a position that takes your own needs into account while also allowing the other person to do the same. It can't always be successful or effortless, so there's a confidence factor here as well. We all have to live with the infinite variety of imperfections and idiosyncrasies we can encounter in others. If that feels awkward sometimes, it's just part of being human.

Much love,
Larry