hello silentnomore. I got your message. some history-I was struck by a NYC subway train in 1990, and taken to the nearest hospital. With an anreal fact of fate, the name of that hospital is the same name of the hospital I was raped in Mass, by two (2) 18 yr. old men, I was only seven (7)pardon the english, but while one screwed me, I had to suck the other, and the next time it was in the reverse. I was in that hospital for three (3) YEARS, either on my back or stomach, because of a horrible bone dissease. Medical sicence now is a hell of a lot better that in those days. the abuse happened after 11:00pm when our one (1) aide was on duty. she was almost deaf and hated using a hearing aide. both the girls and boys ward had only one (1) RN. the time was during the Korean war so help in MA was very short. anyway when a nurse in NYC was yelling at me, "your at St.Lukes now, it is all ok" the only st Lukes I knew was the one back in 1951, so all hell broke loose. I have been in counselin now for more that nine (9) months. things back in Aug. were very bad, because of an ex-priest, who also worked for the state and city of Nashville, was found to abusing boys, and a chap in his mid 30s who has yet to go to trial, and worked for the POLICE boxing club was also found to abusing boys. in early Sept 00, the local rape center director wrote a letter to the editors of the NASHBILLE TENNESSEAN, and I responded to that letter, thus I see a counselor at the rape center each Tuesday, and now in a group there. It IS all spilling out and the flashbacks are horrid. I've never been married, am gay and "came out" during 1974 while I worked in Louisville,KY. these web pages - both the Male survivors and Gay survivors pages, pluse in general NOMSV is GREAT AND THEY DO HELP SO MUCH. I'll end with this thought, I do not know where you are in recovery, but I believe many will agree with me, you have taken a HUGE STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTON. feel free to e-mail me directly at
[email protected] thanks, Michael aka bos
